this is the first time i read the blog of a lesbian.........her blog about her love story...........i've no intention to expose somebody's secret, i'm just suddenly aware of the purity of the love in homosexual love.
my sister, older sister.........as i told you in another post,is a lesbian........that's the fact i've never told any of my friends,i daren't tell anyone,i dont have the courage to tell anyone.......but here thoughts.com, bcoz noone knows me here and most of the people here are americans who may be more open when facing this case. it sounds like i feel ashamed of it..............yes,sort of, but nothing can change my love to my dear sister who grew up with me, i dont know why i daren't tell anyone about it, maybe i'll get hurt.........but she may be hurt more seriously. well,anyway, this is the first time i openly talk about it.
as a normal girl,if i can say so, i dont know anything about homosexual, that's such a strange word to me, it is too far from me. my sister is always dressed like a boy,always,since i was 6 she was 7,it's been normal in my eyes,noone can ever change her and the homo kind of word is never been in our life, it is a totally strange concept in our mind........until these two years,after i entered university,i began to know more people and has broaden my outlook and nowadays homosexual has been a hot topic among young people(see how old fashion i am),so i had the chance to know there's a word---homosexual. but i still never try to know this group of people and never suspect that my own sister might be a lesbian. until the day she admit it herself, in fact it still take her a long time to realise it.
today,this morning,i read my sister's blog,the love stories of her,i get to know all the sorrows she's been through. being very rebelious,she's always a child with problem,and i never know she also have the same feeling,also has love,now,at this moment,it feels like,i am trying to know my sister again,in a new way,not from the angle of a sister,but a girl,a young girl,to look at her as a person in love(maybe a man in love). all of a sudden her rebellion,her wasting money,all bad things about her have all gone in my mind,i just want to love her,to tell her that she is not alone...
have you ever got to know these people,they do love. still in some people's eyes,homosexual is kind of sin, even though, it is not their fault, who want to be the target of the whole society?? why should they be looked down upon by the mainstream? they do have the love as pure as we do,or ever purer, i dont know,i just start to think, they need more than we think.
sis,i love ya,and u r not alone.
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