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Why does it have to be so hard? Why can't people die peacefully and with loving people surrounding them? For those of you that read about my grandfather back around Thanksgiving, this is a little update for you. On April 9 my Papa was at home, having breakfast with his wife, all was well. He reached out for his cup of coffee, and tried to stand up, and he had a seizure. The seizure caused an ugly fall, which led to a broken nose, and concussion. He spent a week in the hospital, miserable and restrained to his bed. He doesn't understand where he is or why he hurts. On April 16th my Nana decided to bring him home with her, he spent days just laying there, refusing to eat or drink anything. yesterday April 20th, he got up from his chair in the livingroom to walk to the bathroom. He didn't make it to the bathroom before he had another ugly episode. He felt lost, and unsure of where he was or why. He forgot that he was headed to the bathroom, and sat on the stairs to do his business. When my mother, his daughter tried to help him up to walk to the bathroom he tried to break her arm in two because "she was in his way and he didn't know her." My Nana and uncle tried to get him to the bathroom and he didn't know them so he tried to get out the house, my mother darted under him and locked the door so he couldn't leave, and he tried to punch her in the face, chasing her around the house. Mom called 911 and he is now back in the hospital, and restrained to his bed. This time, he's beggin for his sister, who btw has been dead since I was 5, to come and kill him already, and praying to god to take him away from all of this. I can't believe how terribly sad and frustrating all of this is. We are looking for nursing homes for him, but Nana want's to take him home "when he gets better." She doesn't want to accept that he isn't getting better. I don't know what to do with myself, I am 2 hours from all them and I have no way to just be there with them. I spent last night crying myself to sleep, and trying to make sense of it all....I just pray that when God is ready to take him, that it happens quickly and painlessly.
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Posted by nikilynn1113 on 2008-04-21 12:54:21 | Rating: | Views: 131
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Ohhh honey I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. I wish that I had the righ words to say to you.
It is hard to watch someone die who is pain, we can dull the pain with drugs, but it is worse to watch someone who doesn't know who, why or where. There are no drugs for that.
My thoughts are with you, Andy and the kids. And I hope that you grandpa finds peace soon.
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Posted by KP
on 2008-04-23 07:31:53
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thanks KP, we're all holding our breaths and waiting, I did talk to my mom today who has been at the hsopital off and on since the 9th of April, poor thing, Papa will be going home Saturday with hospice and a lot of drugs to keep him comfy. He is in a lot of pain now too since he isn't eating or drinking anything. He is going to be missed greatly, and hopefully his pain will go away and he will find a better place than this soon. They aren't expecting him to make it through next week, if he even makes it to Saturday. I'm sure we will talk soon....have a great day hun!!!
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Posted by nikilynn1113
on 2008-04-23 14:53:57
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