For those of you who are looking for an update papa is getting much much closer to death. The docs didn't expect him to make it through last night, but he's still here as I type this. He can't speak at this point and his kidney function is at 1% or so. He is holding on still and I'm not sure why. It's not that I want him to die, I want him to be at peace. His mind is gone and there's little left of his body. He is slowly and agonizingly dying more and more each minute that passes, but his soul isn't passing on. My grandmother started writing his obituary today with my uncle, and the guys are all getting thier suits ready. Mom bought a nice dress, as did I. Some in our family have great disdain for the current events here, and for my poor Nana. Her pastor, her brother & her sister have all accused her of murdering him because she will not hook him to life support of any means, which are his wishes and orders. Papa at thise point has lost the ability to speak, eat, drink, walk, sit up, or stay concious, although he isn't really in a coma. He just stares into space reaching for some unseen thing or person. I hope for his sake that it is Jesus and the angels coming to get him and take him home. His daughter, my Aunt, has been telling him the doctors will fix him and he will be ok, instead of telling himit's ok for him to go and that she will be ok. My grandmother has spent a lot of time alone with him telling him that she will take care of Prince, the dog they bought for my brother and Papa ended up falling in love with. She promised him that she would be with him soon and that she loves him. She is going through such hell trying to be there for him and everyone else. I wish there was more I could do to help them all. I miss my family, and it's hard for me to know that the last memory I will have of my dear Papa is the sight of this once strong and able man sitting in a chair staring at a rainbow colored balloon not know where he is or why he is there. I do know that he remembered me being there with my kids, he asked where we went a few times in the days following our visit. I miss him now...and I will forever....