Thoughts.com Blogs - I feel strong...

This evening after a long day at work, I came home to chill out in my little bubble here, and decompress. : ) Andy isn't feeling well, so he's kinda vegged out and I did a few things around the house, and then sat here to check my myspage page. As usual I decided to check on a couple of my friends, see how things are going. Brandi finally had her baby, and very beautiful little girl she named Leia. Becky enjoyed some pics I sent her from when she and I used to hang out and party together. Somewhere in all of this I decided to go look at the friends page that was close to my husband. For the sake of privacy and not bringing bad karma to my home, I will not share her name. She posted a new blog...so I open it, it's all labeled about holidays and being sentimental...but realisticly, the blog is about me. It's about her disapproval of my choices, which she has shared with me before, and I thought we were done with. I was very very wrong...apparently, she is still hanging onto these issues. I made the choice, at this time post a comment telling her goodbye...as I will not be subjecting myself or my family, or my home to her. I will not allow the people I love to be choked by her negativity and dislike for me. It was said in the blog of hers, that I am a spineless person. While I do not need anyone in this world to tell me that I have a spine, as I already know this very well....it pisses me off to no end that someone who claims to be my friends has such low opinions of me...to come into my home less than a week ago, almost 2 weeks after posting that blog...and then try to tell me they love me. I have never felt stronger in my life than I have in the last 4 months. Not only have I chosen to change my life to make it happier for myself and my children, but I also chose to take a step most people wouldn't have dreamt of. I chose to tell a man that I have known for more than a decade, that I am in love with him still to this day. I had no idea I was going to be welcomed by him and wrapped into his arms, and held closely while we kissed that first time. I have made my life what I want it...not sat back to watch my life flow by slowly and sadly while I cry about it. I feel strong, every damn day I feel stronger...I am a kick ass mom, an awesome girfriend, a wonderful friend, an expensive photographer ; ) and I really don't need anyone else's approval of my life, to make me happy.

I hope you all don't mind my little temper tantrum tonight..lol I needed to get that all out before I go crawl into bed with my love...no one wants negative energy in the bedroom!!

Hugz~Niki