Thoughts.com Blogs - too much, too soon..?

I have been accepted in one of the most prestigious hospitals in the country as a staff nurse. Work will officially start on Monday of next week. I'm absolutely scared shitless. I don't know if it has affected me hormonally, because I had the most painful menstrual cramps yesterday and I vomited four times. It was surprising that I didn't pass out.

I also flunked the Medication exam, so technically I'm not supposed to give medications on Monday even though I have a license. So embarrassing. I don't know what happened, I made the stupidest mistakes and I was way, way below the passing score.

On the bright side, I'm now going out with Ryan, my long-time office crush :D It turns out that he really did like me and now he says he's in love :D:D

We had our first kiss today, in his car. It was very natural, there was no awkwardness at all. Which is surprsing because it was totally unplanned, like we were sitting there in broad daylight talking of going home (I went to my former workplace for my clearance) when this moment happened. Like one minute we were looking at each other and the next- no, not fireworks... more like coming home : ) I hope that makes sense.

The emotions are all so mixed up but I'm thankful to be here. I am really, really, REALLY thankful...
Thank You Lord : ): ): )