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I have been complaining alot latley about wanting to find someone spiceal and I know that this may seem a little sudden.Ok so I have to start from the beginning of this story.His name is Alex hes 16 and I met him online.I am quiet a social butterfly in there.com so I went over there and said hay and we talked.And talked.And talked.And talked.I bonded with him so well and it was so great to find someone that understood me and we are going throug alot of the same things.Hes like a male version of me.So we talked for three hours then he told me that he was starting to like me.So I told him that I was starting to like him too.Then he wrote me a poem and it was really sweet and I loved it and as I say alot I was floting on a cloud.I talked to him the next day and it was so nice and whenever he would talk to me he would write me a new poem.Some of them were corney like hay baby I love you lots I love you more than tater tots.And hay honey I love you 1,000,000 more times than bunnies.(My friends thought that thoes lines were absoultly hilarious.
So one day we were talking and he had read me one of his famous poems and at the end he said it.The one thing that I am deffently not ready to here."I love you".I was so shocked because I really don't think that I'm ready to fall in love and certanly not with someone that I have never met in person.I thought that I was in love with Nick but I was wrong.I really do like Alex but he is just making things so complicated.And I didn't want to do anything drastic because Alex said that his life sucked and I was the most important thing in his life.He said that he tryed to comit sucicide.So I deffentaly didn't want to mess with him mentley.But I couldn't say I love you back to him because I really don't think that I do love him.I care about him, but I don't love him.
I told him that I was going to north carlina and that I wouldn't be back till thursday but that was last thursday and I didn't get on because I really don't think that I will because it is really the best thing for me to do right now.I think that God wanted me to know that I needed to be able to move on because when you try to hold on to something you don't want to hold on to you end up tired and hurt.I don't need or want to be hurt agian like I was by Nick and Ulices.I deffentaly don't need it.I am pretty sure that Alex wouldn't have hurt me and I'm probley hurting him but i'm never gettting back on there.com ever agian and my life will be so much better without worring about him.Thats why I deleated there.com off my desktop.If Alex ever reads this I hope that he knows that I'm sorry but I'm not ready to fall in love with him, and I don't think I ever will.
Niceley123
P.S( for my convince and comfort I riped up all of his poems so I wouldn't have to hurt anymore.)
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Posted by niceley123 on 2008-07-19 12:56:58 | Rating: | Views: 30
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