to: D.M


You can call yourself strong

You can push further than you reach

But you still feel the taste of blood and sweat

Hiding under covers and running in your veins

Every time you smile you feel so dead

I can’t help you now

You’re drowning into your own sea

You broke the laws one day you made

You’re sick and the medication is too addicting

And this is where you have no way

When you lose the words you wish you’d say

I won’t save you this time

I’ll never be this soul you’ve been looking for

And as long as you keep your head under water

I’ll walk away from you

And I’ll be running away from everything you love

You think screaming will keep you alive

Baby you’re so wrong

Your screams are so empty that when you open your mouth it makes no sound

No sound

I swear I was close to destroy myself with you

Can you tell I’m not scared anymore

You thought you could take my hand and tear me under

You made a mistake and now you’re alone

Why are you suffocating

Why are you struggling

Why are you fading

It’s because you’re still the one you’ve always been

It’s because you’re all alone facing yourself

And I’m not, never will be your heroine

Make yourself sick if it feels right

Break it now but break it fast

What are you waiting for

It’s just a heart

You’ve done so much worse

And I never expected more than this look in your eyes

Make yourself sick

Make yourself blind

You’ll never really see these marks on your arm

You’ve broken both your legs but you're trying to keep running

See you’re useless

See you’re powerless

You lost a fight and lost the war

Now do yourself a favor

Fall on your knees and realize.