Well, I was right….somewhat. In my last blog I said that it would be my luck to declare that I’m over the whole Jim thing, and he would end up calling to ruin it all. Well, he didn’t call, but he was at the bar I was at last night. I met up with Tom and some girls he works with at a bar in my town (not our usual bar) and sure enough Jim was there with his best friend. We both completely ignored each other. I pretended that I didn’t even notice he was there. He just ignored me, because I saw him look at me out of the corner of my eye so I know he knew I was there. Plus, we were sitting at a table right by the door, so he had to walk right in front of our table to go outside. It was a bit of a challenge to pretend I didn’t see him when he went out for a cigarette, but I saw him look at me out of the corner of my eye when he went outside. I wonder if I should have made eye contact with him to let him know I knew he was there, but I wasn’t going to say anything to him anyway. He and his friend left probably 45 minutes after I got there. I was relieved, but very sad. I just thought it was sad how we could go from what we were to acting like complete strangers so quickly. I really wanted to send him a text today saying, “Thanks for making things so awkward with us that we can’t even be friends, let alone acquaintances.” I decided against it, because he probably won't respond back and that is only going to make me even more angry. I wish I had the chance to sit down with him and have a good, long talk….I just want to ask him what is up with him and his weird behavior…..and then tell him off so I can make myself feel better.
So, the rest of my night was fun. One of the girls Tom works with, Kristy, was there. We actually used to be really good friends my first couple years of college. We hung out all the time, until I found out that she had spread some bad rumors about me. Well, I was young and stupid back then, so instead of just being a mature adult and confronting her about it, I did something mean and catty back. In one of my other posts I mentioned my friend, Bill, who I had recently gotten dinner with to catch up. (He is the one that we’ll be friends, get in a fight, go months without talking, and then end up friends again somehow) Anyway, she had a little crush on him, and I went for him anyway. It was actually a huge mess. Let me try to explain:
I met Bill and Andy (the Andy I hung out with a couple weeks ago that lives in the city now….he is the guy I have an absolute blast with no matter what) at an ex-boyfriend’s house party. Kristy had talked all that week about how she couldn’t wait to see Bill, because she thought he was so hot. Well, when Kimmy and I got to the party Bill started talking to us. Kimmy and I actually thought he was an ass at first. I told Kimmy to flirt with him to make Kristy mad, but Kimmy is too shy so I did it. What sucks is, while I was busy flirting and being a backstabbing bitch to Kristy, Andy was trying to go for me. I had found out that he liked me, but I didn’t even give him the time of day. How I hate myself now for that!!! I ended up making out with Bill that night, who was making out with Kristy earlier, and who made out with Kimmy later in the night….what an ass right?haha Well, my plan worked….I got Kristy back, and lost her as a friend. In the meantime, my plan backfired, because I ended up developing feelings for Bill. We liked each other a lot, but nothing came of it, because he liked Kimmy as well. I never could understand how a guy can really like 2 girls at once. I accepted the fact that nothing would ever work with Bill and me, but I still had feelings for him. Well, then I met Mark and would be out with him all the time, so Kimmy started talking to Bill a lot more. Well, Kimmy and I went to visit Bill at school probably 2 weeks after Mark and I started dating. While we were visiting Bill, I lost them both at a party, so I went up to one of Bill’s friends and asked where they were, and he told me they were making out. I felt crushed. Yes, I had a boyfriend, but I was still hurt by it. I asked Kimmy about it, and she lied to me. She told me that she would never do something like that to me. That hurt me even more. I hate being lied to! I think it hurts more than anything to be lied to. Just suck it up, be honest, and take responsibility for your actions. Lying is a cowardly act. I’m not saying I never lie….everybody does….but when you do something wrong to someone, don’t try to hide it….it will end up biting you in the ass, and you just hurt the person even more.
So, that’s that story. Back to last night…..Kristy’s ex-boyfriend, Brandon, has been hitting on me every time I see him. He was out last night too, and hitting on me like crazy until Kristy showed up. I said hi to her, and the look on his face was hilarious….it looked like, “Oh shit, they know each other.” After she left, he was back to hitting on me like crazy. He invited Tom and me to go drink some more at his house with his roommate, Rick (who I have known since high school). At their house, Brandon put his flirting into high gear. He was telling me how sexy he thinks my laugh is, how I’m so much fun to hang out with, how he would love to take me upstairs and throw me on his bed, and he kept slapping my ass. I just laughed him off, but I know I’m going to have to end up telling him why nothing is ever going to happen between us. I got a little turned on when he said he wanted to throw me on his bed though, but I blocked it out. I don’t want to go for Kristy’s ex…..we are starting to get back on good terms again, and I don’t want to ruin it. Besides, that would look really bad of me. He tried getting me to stay over too. That would definitely not be a good idea! I went home….no way I was going to stay there.
I don't know what is going on tomorrow yet. Jill wants to have people at her house, but I would much rather go to Dan's. To be honest, I would rather go somewhere I have a chance of running into Jim at.......so pathetic.
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