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So, I was a moron tonight. I went out with Tom, because I was depressed still about Jim and didn't feel like watching another depressing movie, and falling asleep crying to it. I know...pathetic. So, Tom and I went out, and I felt myself getting tipsy, so I deleted Jim from my phone book so I wouldn't call him. Well, me, and my drunken-self, discovered that his phone number was still recorded in my phone from previous text messages and such. Therefore, after the 3rd bar I was at, my stupid, drunk-self decided to call him. Of course, he didn't answer. I have no idea what I was going to say to him now, but while I was listening to his phone ring, I obviously had some sort of idea. Tom and I went and got food, and afterwards I thought about how stupid I was for calling Jim, so I sent him a text telling him that I didn't mean to call him, he didn't have to be afraid to talk to me, and that I didn't even care about our emotional conversation Friday night. I'm so mad at myself for doing that....I'm sure I will be even more mad at myself when I wake up tomorrow and realize what I did. He still hasn't said a word to me since Sunday night, and I was planning on leaving it at that, but I got alcohol in my system tonight, and got ballsy.....I'm an idiot. I really think that we are done this time. I will be extremely surprised if Jim does try to contact me. I really, highly doubt that he wants to continue what we had. I need to just come to the realization that I'm probably never going to talk to him, hang out with him, kiss him, or have sex with him again......all that devastates me. I wish that he wasn't so damn good in bed, maybe it would make things easier on me.....
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Posted by nakedtruth on 2008-03-26 04:26:59 | Rating: | Views: 145
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Oh no the drunk calling and texts. Those are never a good thing. Don't worry you will get over Jim, and some one better will come along. I know that this is pretty lame to say but hey everything happens for a reason. If its not meant to be its not meant to be.
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Posted by jenjan
on 2008-03-26 05:44:23
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I guess you're right...but there is a part of me that doesn't want to get over him, if that makes sense.
BTW...I did wake up this morning hating myself even more for my stupid drunk calling and texting. Eh, I suck at life right now, so all I can do is just laugh at myself.
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Posted by nakedtruth
on 2008-03-26 14:52:07
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haha your not a stupid drunk... just a girl with a crush. Anyone of us would have done the same thing. Just know your worth a lot and if he's not going to show you that then show him the door. <3 ya and keep your head up.
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Posted by LadiLucifer
on 2008-03-26 15:19:04
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Agreed, not a stupid drunk. Like you said, you were just "brave" :) We all do it... and so does he probably!!
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Posted by TheAlreadyJaded
on 2008-03-26 15:27:59
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Ah yes, the infamous drunk calling/texting. Most, if not all, have been there...& we all do it to one of the last people we should be doing it to. Something to giggle at down the road. It's that "liquid courage", gets ya everytime! :)
If he doesn't respond to you, not worth it. Move on. I know that's hard to say now but there is someone out there who is better...at least that's what I keep telling myself. ;) Good luck!
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Posted by Mandie142
on 2008-03-26 15:48:03
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And don't even imagine that men are immune to the same responses. After all we're all human even if men are from mars and women from venus (My pa says he's from from pluto - oh no that's not a planet anymore!)
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Posted by Tony51203
on 2008-03-27 22:35:02
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