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Well, now I have drank 5 nights in a row. Definitely not helping me lose weight. Oh well, it's my own fault. I have an excuse for every night though. I had to go out drinking Thursday, because.....wow, that is bad....I don't remember why I had to go out Thursday night. Shit! haha I remember why for every other night though!!! I had to go Friday and Saturday night for the same reason....it's the frickin weekend!! I can't mentally bring myself to stay in on a weekend night no matter how crappy or tired I feel. I had to drink last night, because it was the cubs/sox game and I told Paul I would go watch the game with him....the crappy, crappy game I might add!!! I had to drink tonight, because it was my favorite bartender's last day working at "the usual" bar.
Tonight I went out with Tom, Jason, and Kimmy. Jason has been behaving himself ever since he apologized to everyone after the last fight....which was probably over a month ago now. So, he has been doing good despite the constant bitching Kimmy has been doing. She annoyed the shit out of me tonight. She kept telling Jason that she was going in a 11pm, and Jason told her that he was going to stay out a little longer than that. In front of me and Tom she would say that is fine, but she is leaving. However, under her breath she would whisper to Jason, "I thought you wanted to see me tonight though." In other words, 'I'm not going home until you do.' I can understand if they were going to go back to her house to have sex, but they hardly do that. She just wanted him to leave when she left. I hate that crap. I was in a relationship with my ex, Mark, that was exactly like that.....attached at the frickin hip. Not attached in a good way (as in, you guys just love being around each other and are best friends), but attached in a mentally sick way (you aren't allowed to be out without the other). I shouldn't call it mentally sick....I don't know. I just was in a relationship like that before and it sucked!!! It just means there is no trust whatsoever. Anyway, Jason and I went for a smoke and he was bitching to me about her. I told him that if he wanted to stay out then tell her to go home if she wants. He says, "I did tell her to, but she gave me the look." I told him that I can't help him then if he can't frickin grow some and not allow her to control him with a facial expression. Now, I understand us women are very good at "scaring" guys with our facial expressions, but I don't think that us women should take total advantage of that. Don't get me wrong, it is fun to have some sort of control, but don't go overboard with it. Frickin Kimmy ended up staying out just as late as the rest of us, because she refused to leave Jason at the bar alone. Her mood turned so sour because Jason wouldn't leave with her that it annoyed the shit out of me. GO HOME IF YOU DON'T WANT TO STAY OUT!!! lakjdsflajsdfl;kjasd
Ok, I have vented enough about those two. So, while I was out last night watching the game, I decided that I was going to force Jim into explaining his "Love" text. Since he wouldn't answer my ? text from earlier in the day, I sent him another saying, "Well, what about it??" He responded with, "What? The club last night was no good. No worries, no girls." I was with Paul and didn't want to appear rude, so I just ignored the text. Besides, Jim didn't answer my question....Mr. King of Evasion!!! So, then I get another one from him asking how my night was. I ignored that one as well. Finally, I get a third one from him saying, "Oh, about the love text...I was flattered by your words....they really hit me hard." He caught my attention so I said, "What words? That email?" He said, "That, and our last conversation in my room. By the way, sex would be great right now." What an ass!!! He thinks that he is so good at evading questions....not at all!!! I just let him get away with it, because.....I don't know why I let him get away with it actually. His response still didn't answer my question. I just went along with him and told him that I meant every word I said to him, and that sex was always great with him. We started talking about that for a little bit when I decided to push it to see if he wanted to have a little fun like we used to with some of our text convos....I told him that I wish I could just jump on top of him right now. The butthead didn't bite....all he said was, "yep". I got sooo annoyed! He is the one that brought the subject up in the first place!!! I didn't feel like talking to him anymore so I said, "Oh don't frickin humor me with that yep bullshit....goodnight." He laughed and said, "sorry...goodnight."
Now, here's my dilemma....I can either be pushy and impatient to get answers right away, or I can play it smart, be patient, but wait to get the answers I want....if that makes sense. What I'm saying is, I want to know what the heck his intentions are with me. I mean, how much longer are we going to play these games?? If he felt the same way I did then he would have told me by now what he wanted. On the other hand, if he actually does feel the same way as I do then what the heck is he waiting for? I mean, what is he expecting from this? Is he just going to keep talking to me once or twice a week until he finds another girl? I really want to confront him and say, "Listen, I was thinking...and I don't want you to feel obligated to talk to me just because I "flattered" you with "my words". I heard your parents sold the house which means you will never step foot in Alabama again. So, there is really no reason to keep in touch with me....we might as well just stop all contact, because it isn't going anywhere. All it will end up doing is hurting me even more when the day comes that you no longer care to talk to me." OR.....should I just keep on with this guessing game that we are playing until he finally admits to his feelings or I finally end up completely heart broken??? I really have no idea what I should do here.....
Must go to sleep.....once again I will only get 4 hours. Ugh...I wish I was 5 years old again.....
OHH!!! I just remembered why I had to go out on Thursday!!!! That was the day I found out Jim's parents sold the house!!! hahaha I think that was a good reason to drink!!
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Posted by nakedtruth on 2008-07-01 02:14:48 | Rating: | Views: 81
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Well if ur a lot more patient than me...i'd have lost it by now!! I dont think he's playing around with you while he's waiting for someone else....he does seem to have feelings for you....i cant get him though. I dont know why he doesnt come out and accept them!!
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-07-01 04:16:29
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hmmm I'd say give it a little bit more time, let him explain a little more and then maybe give him some sort of final word or something.
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Posted by TheAlreadyJaded
on 2008-07-01 11:36:33
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I agree with TheAlreadyJaded - give it more time. If you tell him that it makes no sense to keep in touch, he might agree with you because he thinks that's what YOU want. Then you would be miserable. But, I agree that you shouldn't wait too long. I think you should keep doing what you are doing for a bit longer but maybe push a little more - like "call" him instead of only texting him - show him that you could be ok with a long distance thing. Maybe ask when he plans to come visit and see if he turns around and asks you to visit him. I can only imagine how frustrating this is for you!
And by the way, I also hate couples who can't be apart. I agree that it just shows they are insecure. A happy couple trusts each other and doesn't need to be attached at the hip.
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Posted by Meredith
on 2008-07-01 18:40:24
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