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The italicized section in this entry is what I wrote, but didn’t post Monday night, before it turned into an amazing night. I decided to leave it, because it is a good spaz moment haha. Feel free to skip past it to the really good part.

I am so unbelievably frustrated right now. This whole thing with Jim has been driving me crazy. I went out to eat tonight with Dan and Jill. I told them about everything that happened this weekend. I asked Dan what the hell I am supposed to think about this whole Jim thing, and he told me to just take it one day at a time. I want to, but it is so frickin hard. When I got home I sent Jim a text asking him if I left my necklace in his room (I can’t find it anywhere). I still haven’t gotten a response back! I don’t understand it at all. Who sits up with you all night talking and making out….not even pressuring sex whatsoever, telling me how much he loves kissing me, holding me when we did try to sleep, and now nothing?! Not even a response to a simple question. Even if I didn’t want anything to do with someone, I would still answer them back if they asked me a simple question. Is he playing games? Is he just not interested, and if not, how the hell did that change so quickly? Am I reading too much into this? Probably. I just think that if a guy really likes a girl, he is going to call her, want to talk to her, and want to see her as much as possible. Who knows….I’ve been out of the loop for nearly 4 years now. Then again….there was a time when Mark and I were broken up, and a friend of mine, Luke, and I developed feelings for each other. He liked me more than I liked him though, because I wasn’t ready to be with anyone yet. The point is Luke called me all the time! We hung out nearly every night one summer. This is why I am starting to wonder if Jim just wants to get a piece….which will make me even more upset that I allowed myself to become interested in him. I should just try to forget about him. I feel sorry for him if he decides to come out Friday night. Let the games begin. I will get all dolled up again, ignore him, and flirt with whoever I can get my hands on…..real mature right? Haha Who knows what I will really do….that sounds like a good plan right now though.

Another thing that has been driving me nuts is one of Mark’s friends from college all of a sudden started talking to me. I knew him too, always thought he was good looking, but left it at that. Out of the blue last week, he IMed me. I was on to his act right from the beginning. He kept asking me what was new, how things were, and what I have been up to. I knew he wanted me to tell him about Mark and me, but I didn’t feel like volunteering that information. We played that game for awhile, and he finally asked me straightforward about Mark. I finally gave in and told him…vaguely though. I got sick of all the questions so I turned the tables and started interrogating him. I asked him what he was up to and where he was living since graduating. He told me the town, and then added, “Not too far from you” to it. That confirmed my suspicions, and I was somewhat annoyed that after being friends with Mark, he would try to go for me. I thought there was a certain guy code. Anyway, he told me that we should hang out sometime, so I stupidly gave him my number. I was hoping that he wouldn’t use it, and maybe I was wrong about him. NOPE! He has sent me text messages every night since Friday!! What the hell!? Now here is a guy who I know is just trying to get in my pants, and he is making more of an effort than Jim is!!! What am I supposed to think of that?? I am really fed up with guys right now!!

Jim eventually responded back to my previous text saying that he would look for my necklace. I was annoyed, and didn’t respond back until my phone beeped, I opened it, and read, “If I do have your necklace, does that mean you are coming over?” All feelings of annoyance melted away instantly. We exchanged an hours worth of flirty text messages until I found myself in my car on the way to his house at 2 am. I should have resisted, played hard to get, done anything to not make myself look like I would just run to him when he calls. Ugh! On the other hand, I’m glad I did, because it was soooo good. At first, we talked and watched tv together for a couple hours. Eventually, that led to us having sex. We must have spent an hour on foreplay so by the time his penis (large penis, I might add) was inside me I was nearing the finish line. It seemed a little awkward at first, but right when we got a rhythm going…I was going. That orgasm took everything out of me. Jim must have noticed, because he said that we can stop. I was so confused. I asked him if he was serious, and he said yes. Then I said, “but you aren’t ‘satisfied’ yet”, and do you know what he said?! He told me that was ok!!! I didn’t know what to think of this. Either, he thought the sex was horrible and didn’t even want to finish, or he really just wanted to please me. The only thing I knew was that I was really second guessing myself in bed. I tried to forget about it while we spent the next couple of hours talking again. He ended up asking me about Mark, and why we broke up. I was a little taken aback by that, but tried to explain the best I could. I just didn’t want him to think that I still had feelings for Mark. It didn’t help my cause when I ended up telling him that I went to Matt’s wedding with Mark. I think I convinced him that there were no feelings left for Mark though. After that uncomfortable conversation, he just started asking me random questions. We kinda made a game out of it, but at the same time, I felt like I was interviewing for the position of Jim’s girlfriend haha. It was nearing 8am (I had to be up at 10 for work) when we started making out again. This time when I felt his penis slide inside me I was determined to get him off. I don’t think I ever rode anyone as hard as I rode Jim. Right when I heard him moan, “Oh Molly, you are going to make me cum” I got turned on even more and came just seconds before he did. It is a huge turn on when a guy talks dirty or lets me know how good it is. We finally decided to go to sleep afterwards. I fell asleep glad we went a second round, because that was definitely the best sex I have had in a looong time, if not, ever.

An hour later the alarm went off. I got up quietly, covered him up, and snuck out without waking him. I was dead at work, but I was all smiles. Only getting 1 hour of sleep was definitely worth it. I got a text from Jim while I was at work saying sorry for keeping me up late, but it was very fun. I got home and passed out around 7. I woke up on and off throughout the night only because my body isn’t used to going to bed before midnight. I woke up today at 1:30. That made me mad, because I had a lot to get done, and the day was pretty much gone by then. I got a text from Jim around 6 tonight asking me how my day off was. We sent a few back and forth, and I think we kinda made plans to hang out? I don’t know….they were confusing. I’ll just type them out:

Jim- You work tomorrow?
Me- I work the next 3 days
Jim- That means no sleep til 8am haha
Me- That’s up to you since you’re the 1 that forces me to stay up past the sun rising
Jim- Not all my fault, you know you loved all the random questions
Me- Sure, but I loved something else just a little bit more.
Jim- Yes, that was great. So work and hanging out for the next few days?
Me- Maybe
Jim- You got big plans or something?
Me- Maybe…nah, I’m just messing with you.

He then responded telling me he had to go get ready to work out, and told me to have a nice evening. So, is that his way of asking to hang out, or was he just seeing what I was up to? I guess I’ll find out eventually. I should try to get some sleep since I have work in the morning. Sleep has been a challenge for me, because I can’t stop thinking about having sex with Jim. If I really like a guy I’m with, and am really attracted to him, he is going to have a great sex life. I wasn’t able to do a lot of things I wanted with Mark, because he wasn’t as adventurous as I was. I’m the type that if I get the urge to have sex with the guy I’m dating (or whatever) we are finding a spot no matter where we are. I love spontaneous sex. Mark was anything but spontaneous….blah! Jim, on the other hand, I can see having a lot of fun with him. I just want to tie him up, blindfold him, and have my way with him. Haha Sweet dreams!

Posted by nakedtruth on 2008-02-21 01:16:18 | Rating:

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		Hahah glad to hear you had so much fun. I'd take Dan's advice and try not to think to much of anything. Just have fun and take things slow. BOW CHICKA WHA WHA!!
Posted by LadiLucifer on 2008-02-21 08:08:37


		Sounds to me like the start of a good relationship. It always starts out wondering what the other person is thinking, Funny thing is they are wondering the same thing. Yeah put all that aside and have fun.. And it sounds like you are.. Rock On.. Errr should I say Ride On..
Posted by onetoejeff on 2008-02-21 21:24:56