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A little hungover today. The past 2 nights I have stayed up waaay too late, and that means I have been slacking on my lose-weight plan. I was doing good with it until Thursday. I went to lunch with Jill (she works in the city also) we get our sandwiches, sit down, and as I go in for the first bite (I was starving), Jill says, "Molly, I have bad news..." Ugh!!! I told her to hit me with it, and she said, "Jim's parents sold the house, so they are moving to California also." (That means Jim is probably never going to come back). I felt like I was punched in the stomach, and immediately lost my appetite. I composed myself, and tried not to let it look like I was that torn up over it. If I can help it, I try not to let my friends see how much it kills me that Jim is gone. Granted, they have all seen me cry over him, but I put up a pretty good front sometimes. I even fool myself into thinking that it doesn't bother me. In fact, this week was going pretty good for me, especially Thursday morning. I woke up thinking that I was OK with never seeing Jim again. I even started to wonder if I was finally getting over him. However, after Jill broke the bad news to me I realized that I was kidding myself thinking I was getting over Jim. I thought it was supposed to get easier as time goes on, but I think it has been getting harder. It's easy when you lie to yourself about a situation as long as the truth doesn't seep out somehow; be prepared though when it does, because the realization of emotions and feelings may knock you on your ass. I was upset and sick to my stomach for the rest of the day. I had to fight the tears on the train ride home. What I really wanted to do was just curl up in my bed and cry for awhile. I haven't had one of those crying fests for awhile, and it's probably because I can trick myself into thinking that I don't care about him.
So when I got home I was deciding if I was in the mood to run and work out when Tom called and asked if I wanted to go out. I felt like I needed a drink after my day (I also got a stupid ticket for not paying 3 tolls 4 months ago...$132!!!!). Anyway, we went to our usual bar with Jason and Kimmy. Tom and I played pool against some girl that was making catty comments under her breath everytime I went to shoot. She was pissing me off so much that I played my best game ever. We came from way behind and won the game, because I decided to just take the table. I refused to lose to a girl like that!! After that game, I was feeling pretty good so I went outside for a smoke. There was a group of people out there as well. Some guy showed up at the bar and ran up to each person, picked them up, and swung them around (they knew him). He then looks at me, and decided that he didn't want to leave me out, so he picked me up and swung me around also. However, he wouldn't put me down, because he said I smelled good haha (I don't know how...I was smoking). After he finally put me down, he went inside and one of his friends tells me how that guy just moved back from California. lkajsdflkjasdfljs Can I pleeeasse stop hearing about that state!?!? I went inside and told Kimmy about my hatred for CA haha. She just laughed at me. She then brought up some guy Jason wanted to set me up with, and I told her that I don't want any guy. She got under my skin when she said, "I know...you want a guy that you are never going to see again." I know it's probably true, but I just was a little bothered by that comment and the tone that went along with it. Whatever....
Well, I ended up staying out really late Thursday night; I only got 3 hours of sleep. Work yesterday was pretty rough, but I got through it. My friend, Andy, invited me over to his condo to watch the rest of the cubs/sox game after work yesterday. I knew he and his roommates would end up getting me to stay out all night long, so I took a raincheck. I ended up just going to Dan's with everyone to play pool. Jason was annoying the shit out of everyone, especially me, so Dan's dad ended up telling him off. He just pretty much told Jason to stop being an asshole because he was bringing everyone down....which he was. Jason and Kimmy left after that. The rest of the night was filled with more drama. Rick and Dan's dad have had some issues in the past, because of Rick's wild behavior when he was younger, so Dan's dad would rather not have Rick at his house. I felt bad for Rick, because he kept calling everyone. I wish now that I would have just answered and told him straight up that he couldn't come over. I really don't know why he was calling everyone anyway, because he had told Brett that he was staying in to get rest for his birthday party that we are now all uninvited to, today. Anyway, he sent some nasty text messages to me and Tom, and ended up showing up at Dan's house with Brandon. Dan and his dad went outside, there was some yelling, and then they left. Then Brandon sends me a text asking me what the heck is going on with Rick and Dan. He also told me that he wanted to ask me out....ugh! I never responded.... I told Brett, Dan, and Tom about Brandon's message, and Dan's dad inquired about the situation. Brett descibed Brandon and a lady's man, and I was like, "Noo way is he a lady's man!!" Dan laughed at me and said, "Molly, that's because you aren't a typical girl....you need somone like Jim." I just laughed, but deep down I was sad because Jim really is perfect for me.
Speaking of the butthead.....before last night, the last time we talked was last Saturday afternoon. I got a text from him at 3am last night asking me if I was playing any pool. I got annoyed, because I still don't understand why he sends me the same stupid text once a week and leaves it at that. I responded saying, "You must be drunk", because I am starting to think that he only wants to talk to me when he is drinking. He never said anything back to me until today. He told me that he wasn't drunk last night, because he only had a few. I thought about what I should say for awhile, because I didn't want to come across as a bitch. I finally just told him that I was beginning to think he only wanted to talk to me when he has been drinking. I then told him that I was playing pool last night. He hasn't said anything back to me yet. I wonder if he will just disregard what I said, and just send me a text later tonight asking what I'm up to. Or, maybe I won't hear from him again for another week. Who knows....
I need a nap....don't know what I'm doing tonight yet.
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Posted by nakedtruth on 2008-06-28 18:53:45 | Rating: | Views: 59
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My heart sank TOO when I read that!! Oh noooo!!!! I'm sorry hunny. :-(
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Posted by TheAlreadyJaded
on 2008-06-29 16:25:06
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That totally sucks that his parents are moving to "the state that shall remain nameless". (I can't even hear the word Pittsburgh without thinking about Brian because it's where he is from - I understand...). Anyway, I would like to hit the girl (Kimmy) who said you only like guys "you will never see again" - that was uncalled for and how does she know? If you guys want to see each other again, you can make it happen!!
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Posted by Meredith
on 2008-06-29 21:14:01
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Im so sorry :( That really sucks...i wish i could say something to make you feel better :(
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-07-01 03:29:27
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