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I'm being such a bitch. I deserve the situation I am in with Jim. First, let me start off by saying that I have horrible phone manners. I screen calls A LOT. I just get in moods sometimes where I don't feel like talking to anyone, so I don't answer. I intend to call the person back, but I always forget to. I am trying to be better about it, because I would hate if someone did that to me. Anyway, so Brandon (Rick's roommate that tricked me into the date last weekend) finally called me last night. I didn't recognize the number and I had a feeling it would be him so I didn't answer. I just wasn't in the mood to talk to him. He left me a voicemail that said, "Hey, Molly, it's Brandon. You are probably either out for a run or screening my call heh heh (that's how he laughs....oooo I'm mean). I was just wondering what you were up to the rest of this week so we could do something....give me a call back." I no sooner get done erasing the message when my phone beeps at me.....it was a text message from.....BRANDON!!! He had just called!!!! Why was he sending me a text right after he left me a voicemail!?!?!?! *Note-guys this seems very desperate and needy.....only do it if you want to turn a girl off. However, if the girl is already head over heels for you then you are exempt from this little rule.* So, his text said pretty much the same thing.....he was wondering if I was screening his calls and blah blah blah. I was sooo annoyed. Then, Paul called me wanting to know if I was going to go out tonight. I didn't answer his call either, because I was not in the mood for guys anymore. Well, I didn't call either of them back last night. I tried making myself do it today, but I could only talk myself into texting them haha. I told Paul that I wasn't going out because I needed to get to bed early....4-5 hours of sleep isn't cutting it (but ohh look at me now.....online after midnight. I wouldn't mind hanging out with Paul as long as he doesn't put any moves on me. Then I responded to Brandon saying, "How can I screen your calls when I didn't know your number? I'm busy the rest of this week." Very cold text I thought....right? Well, obviously he didn't think so because he sent me one back saying, "Oh I didn't mean screen my calls....I meant ignore. {what the hell is the difference?} I understand you are busy....I am too. You free to chat later tonight? I would like to give you a buzz when I get home." lakjdflajdsfljakdsfl;jkdsf I never responded to that one or the other 2 he sent me. The other 2 texts were in regards to baseball scores (I'm obsessed with baseball.....the night before opening day is like Christmas for me, and October is depressing because I know I have to wait until March to get it again). Anyway, I'm a bitch. I feel bad and I probably deserve the confusing behavior I get from Jim. I just don't want any other guy but him. I don't want to go out on a date with one, I don't want to talk to one all the time, I don't want to kiss one....nothing! I'm 100% off the market....emotionally. Now, when I have to talk to Brandon (I can't ignore him forever) I am going to have to tell him straight up that I'm not interested. It is sooo much easier to tell guys "I have a boyfriend" instead of making up some other excuse of why you aren't interested.
I think what is making me turn into a bitch about all of this is these guys have no problem texting or calling me everyday, and Jim only likes to talk to me once a week. Oh, I went out with Tom Monday night to play some pool. Well, I ended up making an amazing shot and I wanted to tell Jim about it since he is always asking how I am improving. So I sent him a text telling him and all he says is, "Monday boozing?". I responded, "Just a lil. Hey you only live once." He said, "Good idea til morning." I joked, "Do you know who you are talking to? I mean, did you move to CA and forget how I am? I'm a frickin trooper....geez no respect haha."
(He used to call me a trooper, because we would stay up all night and into the morning until I had to go to work on no sleep....that happened pretty much every weekend. He didn't know how I did it.....but I do. When you are that happy and goofy over someone then no lack of sleep or hangover is going to get you down).
Well, he never responded to my little joke, and that's the last I have heard from him. I'm not going to say 1 word to him this weekend unless he does first. I don't care if I have to hide my phone on my drunk, texting-ass!
So, to sum it all up......I'm considering myself emotionally taken by a guy who lives in another state, talks to me maybe once or twice a week, won't tell me what he wants out of this...if anything, and I have no idea if this "relationship" with him is going anywhere. Wow, I just came to the realization that I seem more desperate and pathetic than a guy who texts right after he leaves a voicemail haha.
Yay for 4 hours of sleep!!
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Posted by nakedtruth on 2008-06-20 01:48:10 | Rating: | Views: 163
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yes you are LOLOLOL
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Posted by JLOyola
on 2008-06-20 02:14:02
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Brandon does sound very desperate! You should just tell him he's too much, calling and texting within minutes is not cool!
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Posted by KarKar
on 2008-06-20 12:37:37
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First of all, I feel EXACTLY the same way you do about baseball! Love it.
Second of all, Brandon should get the friggin hint. How annoying.
Thirdly, you do not need to apologize (to yourself or anyone else) for not being interested in anybody but Jim. Just because a guy likes you, doesn't mean you should feel bad if you don't like him. If you don't feel like talking on the phone/returning a text - don't do it. When guys don't like us, do you think THEY feel bad when they blow us off. NO WAY.
Finally, you are not pathetic. You and Jim are just in an awkward place right now since he moved away and you don't know where you are at.
Have a great weekend and sorry for the long-winded comment!
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Posted by Meredith
on 2008-06-20 15:50:50
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At least you are honest about being emotionally unavailable and you aren't leading the boys on... :) And I love baseball too! CWS!
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Posted by TheAlreadyJaded
on 2008-06-20 15:53:07
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