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Every day I wish I would stop questioning things. Stop analyzing myself, life, others, etc. I guess it makes me who I am and I value the fact that I'm not happy with the status quo and question societal norms. However, it really isn't necessary to question EVERYTHING. It's quite painful actually...
What is my next career move? Will it make me happy?
Was going back to school again worth the added debt?
Why do I feel guilty sometimes because I make more money than my parents?
Does it really matter if I vote?
Does abortion really decrease the crime rate?
Is the death penalty really that bad if the person committed a truly heinous act? Who makes that call?
Is it too harsh to not feel pity on the troops because they chose to join the military?
Is it ok to love the US, but also be ashamed of our foreign policy and our ignorance of other cultures?
Why is religion so important to people? Is there a god? Why do people kill over religion?
If I died, would anyone show up at my funeral?
If I moved, would my family miss me? Visit me?
Will I ever find someone to love, a true lover and friend?
Is there really only one person out there for me? Or more than one?
Why didn't he like me? Did I try too hard or do something wrong?
Are all the good ones taken? Should I give up hope?
Do all relationships end? Is there such thing as forever?
Will I have children? Will I feel like a failure if I don't have a family?
Is buying a house/condo all its cracked up to be? Why is renting so bad?
Do I have a fear of commitment or have I just not found my place in this world?
How do I know if I'm depressed or if I go through seasonal ruts? Is there a difference?
Why can't I answer yes or no questions without saying "well, it depends..." first?
Do all of these questions make me selfish or just human?
Some days I think I know the answers to these questions. Then other days, the answers change. I meet people that make me question life and myself, in good and bad ways. Will I ever find the answers? Sometimes, I'm not sure we are meant to find the answers. Life is the journey that creates these questions, answers them, and then creates more. Other days, I just choose to ignore them because it's easier. Those days can be blissfully grand, but then I wonder if, by avoiding them, am I being an irresponsible adult?
Do these questions end or is it a constant circle? I'm not sure it will ever end for me, but I long for the days where I can be content with my life and my choices. I don't regret anything, but I feel stuck in a place where I can't seem to pick the next path. I'm not sure if I lack direction, drive, or if I'm meant to be here... right here, right now, trying my best to get to know myself and what truly makes me happy. I think it's worth it... |
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Posted by nadira on 2008-02-25 21:33:48 | Rating: | Views: 122
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"Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer." Rainer Maria Rilke -- Czech Poet
Six years ago a close friend of mine committed suicide and all I had were questions. Why did this happen? ... how could God let this happen? Then I came across the following quote and it helped me so much. Questions are a part of life from the cradle to the grave. I'm 54 and still have a ton of questions. Some questions are never answered this side of heaven and we have to be content in not knowing. Keep seeking, searching and asking but don't dwell constantly or obsess on the mysteries of life. Don't forget to enjoy today and live in the moment ... as this day ... this moment is all we have. Peace.
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Posted by ColoradoDreamin
on 2008-02-26 02:25:00
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Wow, those are ALOT of questions.But it seems like a fun challenge since I'm bored at work. OK here goes :
1) Just don't think about it too much. Accept life the way it goes. I had dreams of becoming a doctor, but that completely blew up in my face. Now I'm fairly happy with a normal administrations job. But I can ALWAYS go back to school ;). Keep your options open and don't be afraid of new things.
12) I am sure you will if you try hard enough. Relationships need nurturing, time , the right circumstances and attraction. I have met a few people in my life that I had believed to be soulmates, I guess. Don't give up.
14) Guys you find amazingly cool at the moment and instantaneously plunge into a deep crush ( ending in crash ) with. Yeah. Been there , done that, read the book, saw the movie and bought the T-shirt. I have no answer for this. Maybe he was in love with someone else or more simply, he's an ass.
HMM as much as I'd love to answer ALL of your questions, or attempt to try from my own personal thoughts and experiences, I will have to leave it to this for now. If I have time today, I will add more comments, surely, if you want me to atleast =P Alrighty, buh bye then !
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Posted by SpookyOne
on 2008-02-26 03:43:57
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HAH, I'm back already. Moving on to 2) You tell me! If having a bachelor/master makes you somewhat happier, it was worth it. For me, 6 years of HS was enough.
3) If you feel guilty about this, buy them nice gifts !
4) Every vote counts, they say. But in reality, I guess 1 vote would not make a difference.Only if you affect the people surrounding you with your political view.
5)That is by far the stupidest question I have heard ever, sorry. How can a BABY be criminal ?! You're ending a life here for no reason , so that means you're the murderer. Awful. I say no to abortion, yes to adoption.
6) I am for the death penalty and I'm sure experts who have studied Law will be the judge of this.
7) Why Pity ? It's a profession like no other. I'm not sure I get this question. -scratches head-
8)Yes ? The US has made a pretty big error judgement in President Bush.
9)This one's a thoughie... I made a blog on religion myself, you should check it out. Religion seems all fuzzy around the edges to me, and some people interpret it in ways THEY only want to see it. Honestly, I don't know. O-O
10) I'm sure your family will come to your funeral !! f not, you'll be too dead to care anyway.
11) Yes. Most families do.
13) I harldy find people I can connect to at almost every level, but when I do, it's really fun.
15)No.
16)No, they don't, and if the concept infinity exists, therefore Forever must exist too ?... O-o Yeah,something like that.
17)I don't know and probably not. But almost everyone I know is married with children , so you will too someday. Erm, Exremely Personal Choice.
18)No idea. I live at home with my parents.
19)Seasonal ruts usually lasts not so long. Depression sucks ass.
20)I don't know. ...
Well, wow I'm finished. I didn't think it would all fit in one box. Thanks for asking these questions. Even if you don't read my comments, it helps me clear things up in my head.I'd love to hear what you think of it though. Some of these questions , like religion are really deep and I could go on "forever" about it. =P But for now, don't be afraid of having questions, every normal person has them and I must admit, I too am unsure about my future now. But it's not that bad, I'm surrounded by loved ones, have my youth and health, and a fairly ok job. It's good to ask questions SOMETIMES, but don't let it rule your life. Insert Cliche here: Enjoy the little things, Carpe Diem, or Noctem ( ;)) and yeah, just take a chill pill. PEACE.
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Posted by SpookyOne
on 2008-02-26 04:54:44
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