sometimes i hate that i have this computer, that it is so easy to check up on people.  i'm terrible about the whole internet stalking thing.  i've worked hard to avoid it, but the past few days i've had nothing else to do since i'm sick.  of course, the stuff i see isn't necessarily "bad," and even if it would be bad if circumstances were different, the circumstances are what they are.  but i hate seeing things that make me want to ask questions, that make me wonder if something is going on that i don't know about.  and i have no business being even worried about such things.
i don't know what i expect.  i don't know anything. 
man, this all sucks so much.

oh, and one of my students wrote me today and told me i'm the greatest thing ever and that she has all these feelings for me, that i'm hot, that she feels safe when i talk to her, that i'm the awesomest awesome who ever awesomed.  talk about uncomfortable.  i still have several weeks where i have to see this girl in class.  i still have to grade her papers.  maybe that would be cool for some guys, but it just freaks me out.

i really, really miss the girl.

oh, and i'm still sick.