christ, everyone wants to track me down and know what i'm doing.  seriously, leave me alone. Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-06 14:27:05
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that's how i get through the day.  it's just another workout.  i keep telling myself to just push through the ache and get through this set. but, man, this set is fucking brutal.... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-07 15:59:50
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i got up 315 on flat bench for five reps today.  finally.  that feels pretty good.  the weight was heavy.  my body hurts.  my joints all hurt.  now i realize why i... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-09 19:13:35
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whoopee.  Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-12 12:40:10
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wednesday was my birthday.  i was going to eat sushi, like that's some special treat or something, but i didn't.  instead i sat home alone and ate hamburger helper again.  i watched... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-14 15:42:11
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i can't seem to find joy in anything.  i keep trying to find a way to wake up and really live, but i'm failing. i'm a failure. Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-15 11:51:28
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i hate buying clothes.  i just can't stand it.  but lately i've had to do so because my clothes simply aren't fitting anymore.  so i'm moving up to xxl shirts slowly, and today i had... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-15 20:30:00
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these assholes have a parade for everything.  seriously, i've been here eight years, and i can't wait to get the fuck.  today was the irish-italian parade on the street in front of my... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-16 21:47:05
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i'm trying to wash clothes, and some old woman who snaked me by putting my load in the dryer on top of it so she could move my clothes in the washer over and wash her five or six small rugs keeps... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-17 11:25:10
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you just want to scream? that's how i feel every morning i wake up. yep. Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-17 13:04:42
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it amazes me how people are so desperate to peg you into some tidy stereotype for which they have some stock response that they will completely ignore what you actually say so as to hear what they... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-17 13:47:38
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i can't tell if i'm too lonely or not lonely enough.  it's up for debate. i recently reazlized that smokey robinson's "tears of a clown" and black flag's "can't... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-18 11:25:53
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i keep having these ridiculous daydreams about meeting emily before the storm. i’m doing the kind of silly stuff i used to do as a kid when i would imagine that i woke up at some point... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-19 09:18:22
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ok, i just can't wear my old tshirts anymore.  even the newer ones, the ones which aren't shrunk up, are too small.  i've been wearing these classic style t's from the gap for the past... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-19 11:28:21
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i don't know what i did to my neck, but it is amazingly sore.  it's not so much my neck as it is my trap on the right side.  i think it's just knotted up from working out yesterday. ... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-20 10:12:49
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pictures from this morning before i went to the gym.  i should wait until chest day after i work out.  i look so much better.  but it is what it is. i'm 241 right now.  at 250... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-21 15:28:39
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i'm bored.  i'm lonely.  i've completely blown my spring break doing nothing.  i've been watching the first season of rome.  pretty good show.  i hate how i... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-23 11:43:09
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"i hate the world that i think hates me punch holes in the wall, you know that hurts me feel dark and cold and alone, it burns me wish someone would come and touch me" i'm... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-24 09:02:31
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i feel the same way, but most everyone bores me, and i have no desire to be around anyone that can be characterized the way he describes women who turn him off.  of course, it's pretty... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-24 12:06:44
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i gave myself a mohawk.  why?  because i couldn't stand the way i looked.  did it help?  not at all. oh, did i mention that i'm exhausted?   Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-24 12:17:46
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i've actually been reading other people's blogs.  i even went so far as to comment on a couple.  i don't know why.  why would i leave a comment for someone i've never met concerning... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-24 15:47:14
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i squatted 365 for six reps today.  it's not some great weight.  it's not even as much as i should be squatting.  but it's a new high for me.  i could probably do more, but i... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-24 19:41:40
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i barely slept at all last night.  i kept waking up covered in sweat.  the ac was blasting, and i had a fan pointed directly at me, but i still kept waking up drenched.  if i took... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-25 10:04:00
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the other girl has the ability to frustrate me like no one else.  sometimes she makes me want to chew a hole in my wrist just so i can bleed out and never have to deal with her again. Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-25 15:41:21
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i have a huge pimple on my back. i can't reach it, so it's just there festering. yes, it's disgusting, and it hurts like hell. so hot. it's funny how we (and by "we" i mean... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-26 16:38:19
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not really.  i'm chewing the air.  i'm going to get out of this apartment.  hopefully the new md is in at the bookstore.  also, i'm going to see if i can go to walmart and get... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-27 11:55:42
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i don't have anything to say of consequence.  i'm tired.  i'm lonely.  i'm sad.  blah blah blah.  boofuckinghoo. i want to go to disneyworld.  or... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-28 12:54:47
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i'm really, really not ok at all. Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-30 14:15:00
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i'm bored a lot, and my only friend is this shovel, so i do what any person in my situation would do.  i passed up six feet down months ago.  i vaguely remember some warning about getting... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-31 09:00:00
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my favorite things in the world are those people who talk a huge game but completely crumble when the opportunity comes to back up all the talk.  it's especially great when someone who has... Read More
Posted by: mywar on 2008-03-31 13:00:00
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