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i hate buying clothes. i just can't stand it. but lately i've had to do so because my clothes simply aren't fitting anymore. so i'm moving up to xxl shirts slowly, and today i had to buy some bigger pants. the waist on my pants are, if anything, fitting more loose, but my pants are just stretched tight across my lower butt and upper hams. every time i bend over i'm afraid they're going to rip. in fact, i'm certain i could hulk out and rip them on purpose, right across my ass, if i wanted to do so. i don't. so i got some bigger pants. clearly, they fit better, but they feel weird. so now i'm walking around in clothes that are bigger than any i've ever worn. as my clothes have begun to fit tighter over the last however-long-it's-taken i've become comfortable with that feel. now, since my clothes fit right, they all feel too big. i can see that they're not, but it feels that way. it makes me feel small. it's funny, but wearing these bigger clothes makes me feel little and skinny. it sucks. whatever.
man, i am just fucking miserable. sitting in the bookstore reading magazines and drinking coffee without the girl there just sucks ass. how long has it been? how long will it be? will this ever be over? lots of stupid questions with no answer. i feel like an idiot.
i think about you all the time, girl. you're the only one who hasn't shit all over me. and you're gone.
really, everything just flat out sucks.
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Posted by mywar on 2008-03-15 20:30:00 | Rating: | Views: 39
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