I've realized recently that almost everyone I am attracted to has an addiction. Not just the typical coffee/chocolate/blogging addictions, but the dangerous ones. I'm pretty sure I'm addicted to drama. And coffee. My hubby is a recovering alcoholic. He has now developed into a compulsive spender. Like many mates of addicts, I didn't see this coming. I was opening bills and it hit me. He has a $4,000 debt I didn't know about, and opened a $20,000 loan to buy a truck we really can't afford. Though the truck will cost much less, he is determined to spend the remainder of the money on accessories - justifying it all by also spending extra money on me. He spent $500 on a GPS - all I want for Christmas is slippers and pj's! I made him take it back and told him that a nice map book would work well for me. So yesterday I gave him yet another ultimatum. Spend less time shopping and more time with me and the kids or I'm moving out. I just can't handle not knowing what will be coming around the track next - and the kids can't handle another broken promise from Dad. We've managed to resolve the problem (I think). But as I was leaving to work, he started to cry and told me that he had had *a bad day shopping* the day before. I've already dug him out at least three other times. I taken on many promotions and now make more money than he does, and am always looking on how to cut back to get the bills down. But everytime I see the light he buys something big - or gets into years long contracts we can't afford. I feel like I'm underwater and just keep getting pushed down. I woke up Wednesday night with the realization that my Dad is addicted to alcohol, brother addicted to drugs/alcohol, mother addicted to antideppressents, best friend is a workaholic, favourite singer is alcoholic, etc. I seem drawn to the addictive type and am terrified that my kids will have this problem. My son (whom we adopted at 11) is the child of severe drug/alcoholics so I keep a very careful eye out. I often wonder if I am an enabler... but am pretty sure I am. I've been bottling it up for so long. It just feels good to come out of denial and finally get this out.