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I am getting happier. I would have never believed how much crap I put my body through via emotions. It's insane! I have had three surgeries in the last year... THREE?! I have an ulcer, stress weight and thought I was having a heart attack but it turned out to be a spasmodic esophagus. Say THAT three times!
I am now making some personal changes and doing things that I like to do... even if it means doing it without hubby and kids! I've gone to a movie with a friend, flown to another girlfriends for a weekend, am taking courses with another. I bought new bedding in a colour that *I* like and didn't ask anyone's opinions! I am avoiding my parents because though they love me, they are not supportive and frankly, quite toxic. In fact, I'm skipping my dad's birthday party because he 'forgot to invite me' but later remembered. What???
But with hubby, we have started going on 'dates' like coffee, walks, and other normal things couples do that he couldn't be bothered with. The little things mean a lot. We talk more, and he is making changes that make himself happy that in turn make me happy. He is kinder, more thoughtful and has layed off. We are still separated, but are now dating... with no intimacy. That won't come until the trust is back. I guess it just takes time and patience, and it's not like I have a lineup of other men waiting for me.
damn.
But I am happier. And I have lost 20 lbs! 255 if you add on the hubby weight!
I am becoming 'me' again.
And I think I am pretty cool.
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I am so HAPPY for you midlife......Your screen name now has more meaning to me...hahaha....I am very proud of you for doing the dating with your husband and learning to take care of your self....Hopefully you aren't too skinny.....With hubby and my weight together we are over 330....so you too must not weigh much...Just remember though, you only have your parent's for a few more years....I lost mom in my thirtys and dad in my forties and I miss them dearly....SO maybe just call Dad on his birthday....
Blessings and much love my dear friend..Hugs too....(cyber hugs that is)
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Posted by Hollis
on 2008-04-27 07:27:55
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Wow that is wonderful, i am so happy that you have made such a positive change for you and just you alone, i wish i had half of your strength honey
well done xxxxx
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Posted by missmarie
on 2008-04-30 12:43:42
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Thank you Hollis and Missmarie! I really appreciate the kindness and support! xo
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Posted by mymidlifecrisis
on 2008-04-30 19:08:34
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