Allow me to scream my head off! If not i dont think i will have the energy or concentration to study! Why are there so many things happen again and again?

1) I read ur blog and i have been reading. Beginning everyone was saying what kind of people u r. U wrote all kinds of things that hurt us. Including me. I thought i shouldnt mind what u say. I thought i should treat u as friend still cozy i totally feel that i or rather we didnt treat u the way u felt. I thought u r just being sensitive. I thought u just want more more lot lot of attention. Today, saw u in toilet and this is what i got from u! I have to call ur name then u answer. Worse still u went out without saying bye. Fine, and now u r telling people we don treat u as friend to ur present class? What de!!!!!!!!!!! telling people u know me very well, and i'm close to u but because of him we chose to be friend with him than u? What all this? Thanks for making me feel digested. Indeed i blame u for saying words in ur blog that hurt people, yet i still chose to protect u. And now what? I'm getting all this attitude from u. What this? nvm. It just make me feel that i'm disappointed with u. very very! I would still be as usual, i would still say hi. But then, don expect me to beg u to join us for gathering already. Cozy u r treating all this as shit! (sorry for the usage of words). I said before, i may joke. But go over my limit. I would pay back double or worse. Take care ya. I wouldnt give that attention to u already. I don want to protect u yet getting all this kind of attitude from u. Take care.

2) What is the problem with family? Are they trying to break this family up? What all this? Cant they think of how we as their children would feel or think? What all this? Stop be childish. I admit i side dad, but so? That is because since young i know how u treat me. And kids are always the most sensitive person! they know clearly who treat them nice and who didnt! Since young i know i'm not ur favour child. Since young i know who u love most. Since young i'm just being treat as ur responsible. I'm grateful that u allow me to study, give me a shelter and of couse have LOOK after me till now. I really grateful but there are things that cannot be change. I'm born with a wing only. A WING and not a pair.

3) I spend so much time on doing Raffle hotel and turn out i'm not being able to do them? I'm still pinting hopes which was stupid! lucky i did a back-up. i did IKEA! and what's now? I cant do IKEA cozy there are too many people doing. ( i'm not angry or unhappy with my advior) Wann do my dad's company and now what? I cant cozy of personal stuff which i don wanna mention cozy it's my dad thingy. As in, it's also mine just that i don want to say out his family personal stuff. I have to come out with new objective. arhhhh... My effort is down into the BIN! what can i do? I admit i'm lost! and everyone is asking me about my result, my PP. What all this? Stop it ya. I need to breath. I need space! What is the point of asking me when u guys are just trying to know what i'm doing and not to discuss on how we can do or whatever. What's all this?

4) What the point of have friends? When within 10 friend, 9 are those that touch and go? I admit i have lot of friends. I admit i have lot of BOY friend. So? What's that again? because i have been through hard times which i felt friends are important to me. That why no matter if it's a guy or gal, they are all my friends. No matter if they are those touch and go friend? Or those who listen to me. I need them as friends. Dont treat to make me lose friend.

Sorry for using words that make may shock u. I just need to scream my head off. don be shock. I'm just being irritated. sorry. i need time to cool down.