I just wanna release myself again. I think i'm feeling too stress. Let me release again and i think i would be fine. Think only cozy i think i have just release and now i am feeling not rite again. Everyone know and have always seen me happy. Even my classmates call me crazy just because i love to laugh and smile. That dont mean that i am fine. I'm just so use of covering my real emotion. Laugher is just part of me. Frankly, i really dont real like to show my real emotion. That is why when things start from small then big then bigger, i need to be alone to release all those stress!

What is relationship all about? U ask why i didnt want to be with u when i have feeling 4 u? Let me tell u, cozy i dont trust! I lose trust and i don want to take u 4 granted which i know i would. I feeling tire, not totally because of relationship. I love ur accompany, thanks for that. Can u not force me to come out with decision? Cant we just be friend first? If u feel that it's so difficult that i wouldnt force u. U need not be my friend or even to i have feeling towards u, u need bother about that. Go for someone who is able to be with u. I dont think i am that person. I shall explain it here whether u view it or not, it will be another problem. I hate and regret my decision of my previous relationship. Cozy at the end or ever meanwhile the relationship i was force to carry the burden, i may make or say that it's ok that is because i didnt wanna make things difficult. But the truth is i mind! and at the end, the whole relationship was like mine. Where i carry the burden all by myself. At the end everything was my fault. And u leave happily. FINE! all this i can only say and learn, pls next time no matter who is it! pls handle the relationship properly! If not the other party would hate u lot and would always remember what u have done! Believe it or not! I have experience it! Because of this, i scare and hate of relationship!

In class, having conflict. Haiz, i know what is wrong. Is just due to competition! Silent competition. And i think i'm over stress that i have 2C for the same module which is sale management. because of this i know i cant miss the other lesson! I dont wanna do badly this sem! i'm going to do well! I think because of this i am getting those negative stress. I dont like that stress! it's making me being very negative and competitive! Now i have been telling myself that i am not going to get C anymore! it's too stressful for me to see Cs!

Sorry friends i think i have been start to neglect u guys. So sorry, i didnt mean it but then now i feel like concentrating on studies. Didnt really want to go out or anything. That is why i sometimes didnt wanna stay back after school. Sorry. And, i have decided to just listen to u guys problem. Cozy i think a group that is quite big would cause some problems. nvm, u guys just make sure everything would be fine ya. I wouldnt be able to look after u guys now. cozy i'm stress and having problems too. Sorry. But then i dont have the strength to carry so many things. i'm not like previous already. sorry.