After a long hiatus from yoga, I decided to start going again. Partly it's guilt, partly it's wanting to be healthy. It's hard especially when you definitely can feel that your body is degrading. I guess when you passed your 25th bday, everything just going downhill. But then, you saw all these news on tv about athletes in their 40's and 50's are still going strong, and then I feel ashamed for not doing more.
Anyway, today when my yoga teacher asked us to set an intention, my brain just suddenly stop wondering from my common Sunday morning thoughts and start figuring out what should I set my intention to. For sure I don't want to set my intention to work harder, cause I'm lazy, it's Sunday morning for Godsake. Then, I was thinking, "Hmm, maybe I can set it to listening to your body needs". It won't work either cause I am too proud to take a balasana when others are sweating their ass off. So, I decided since it's Sunday anyway, maybe I should set my intention to "Achieving Spirituality". What a perfect choice, but not so good of a execution.
I did okay for the first 3 asanas, which is stand up, fold and chaturanga. But, after that, my ego started to creep up again. I know, I know, all egos need to be checked at the door. But, when sirsana I was next, I can't start peeping to my back neighbors, who are newbies. I love newbies, cause they have the cutest look on their face, most of the time, it's quizical. I think that's a word, but not sure the spelling, does this blog thing has spell check?
Well, anyway, back to my yoga story. When the newbies was asked if they want to do Sirsasana, they immediately shake their heads. That would be my first intuition, and then my pride set in. And, I believe, I was exuding these arrogant energy out. So, I decided to pipe down and then do the Sirsasana again, but due to my head swelling bigger than a frigging watermelon, I couldn't find my flat spot and the second Sirsasana failed to complete. Guess what, it's karma. I think so. And, yes, I shouldn't talked about my yoga asana after it's performed, after all, we yogi are supposed to live in the presents. Hmmmm...