Thoughts.com Blogs - Trying to fight the battle alone

* There is nothing much to say lately since I have been traveling with my college choir over the midwest these past couple of dayslacking any technology up until now...the only thing i will like to say is that i have made a big mistake in trusting in those who i thought where by my side i have dealt with my situations by looking on to those who i thought hada littlemore wisdom in thatarea of expertise than i did but it only brought my a deep felt hurt and no one now wants to listen to me rant. Everyone wants to throw me into the lion pit but no one wants to see me get out with their help except for one person my best friend in the world brandon...he has my back no matter I guess you can say that he helps fight off the bad monsters that haunt me in the night and now that school is overi dont have a helping hand to lean on to and i have to depend on myself I have grown tired of being blindsided and i know i say this all the time but i will not take it anymmore not now not ever cause it is building up and ready to unleash....they say you have to kiss a couple of frogs in order to find your prince but why should i do that? and end up with him running into the arms of another girl or me catching herpes ( which I havent so far ) but still i rather be alone kissing air then running around trying to find "true love" for it will never happen to me I feel as if I will forever be the girl you love to make out with but not the one you would date and its not like i am not qualified for I am its just that i repell the boys...*sigh* i am so random tonight and i feel a thousand emotions going through me and i cant pin point one maybe next week i can give them all direction but i do know not a lot of people will be happy by the end of this weekend with me*