My wife asked me to leave her alone and to give her time and space. At this point, I will honer her wish. She has moved most of her things down to her dad's..... It is most likely that she will never come back. With everything that had happened, I understand why she did what she did. She sees me as the source of her stress. By not talking to me or seeing me, she removes that stress from her life.... I spent almost 9 years getting to know her. Even though I don't  really like or agree with what she is going, but I understand.

I am heart broken, sad, depressed, and sometimes angry, but believe it or not I am actually more worry about her.. I don't want her MS to flare up again. I see her suffering through the disease everyday since day one. All of the medicines she has to take on daily basis, and injections few times a week....... muscle pain that she has to endure 24/7... Migraines from time to time......but I guess the most painful part for her, is knowing that she has the disease. Her pain is something that I will never understand, but I would like to be there for her.

Up to this point, she still haven't told me that she wants a divorce. All she asked of me was to leave her alone for awhile and let her think. Her action tells me that she doesn't plan to come back, but she never put it into words.. ..at least not to me. Has she made up her mind already and don't want to tell me, or she is still thinking...

I love her. I will give her time and space. But the waiting for the unknown is kiling me.... Emotional roller coaster.... I have lost more than 30 pounds already and my weight is still going down.... I went from 213 down to now, 178 pounds...... I can't eat and I can't sleep....... I think, on average, I eat about 1 meal every 3 days....... and I sleep about 4 hours a day..... How long can my mind and my body take this kind of abuse.......

She is my lovey, she is my honey, and she is my babe.... I have to give her time......