I did a lot of thinking within the past few weeks, even with all of the lying, cheating, and spying, I still want to be with her. We spent 9 years of our life building this relationship, and I am not going down without a fight. I want us to find out what went wrong and learn from mistakes.

I think partially, she thinks she settled by marrying me because she has MS, but I totally don't think so. I see her as this beautiful and sexy person, and I put up with her bad temper, and mood swings. She is definitly no princess, but I really love her for who she is....except for the cheating. I am not sure why, she went from a good person to one that lies and cheats......is MS doing this to her.......

I understand I am no angel myself. I have been grumpy for months. I think it is caused by my sleep apnea. On average, I wake up about 11 times per hour... scary, huh..... my whole body ache and tired all the time. And with added stress, and with sleep apnea getting worse....well, you do the math... This is when I decided to go through with the surgery......PAINFUL is the only way I can discribe it....But it was worth it...well, in a way. My wife had moved out......

I really want things to work out between us. It took me a long time to get pass the hard exterior shell that she puts up where she hide most of time. Even with all of the lying and cheating, I know who she really is. I think this is why I still fight so hard to get her back.......

I don't think any man would want their wife back after  any kinds of cheating... Am I stupid?..........