Another day has come.... and my situation is still the same... I miss my wife's beautiful smile, her scent, and her presence...... and her witty remarks...I miss that she always correct my English and poke fun of the way I say different words..... I love when she pinches my butt and tell me how much she likes it...... All of the small things that we used to do....

I guess marriage is all about a friendship of lifetime, not about who is right, who is wrong, or who did what...... What I miss the most about marriage is being with her, and I .....no, we have lost track on that.

We both have made mistakes. To get pass the mistakes would not be easy, but it is doable. I married her not just for the good times, but for bad times as well. Calling quits is not in my nature, especially when it comes down to the person that I love. Changing one self is part of the life to adapt to different situations.

In our situation, getting divorce and finding another person is the easy (and cowardly) way out, but It really doesn't accomplish anything. Communication is still not there, and nothing would get resolved. It would just become one of those "out of sight, out of mind" type of thing.

Yes, everything happens for a reason. And I believe what's happening right now is a time for us to re-examine our relationship, to rediscover what's important and to reset our priorities. With her gone, I realize what's missing in my life, and what I want for my life. Real life stresses will always be there. It doesn't matter who you are with. I guess learning how to handle them is the key for a happy life.

I am still trying very hard to make peace with all that's going on, and I know I am not the only one that's in pain, but her as well. She is still an angel in my heart, and my love for her is endless. I know I am the one person for her, and she is the one person for me. My wife called me a "walking Hallmark moments", and I am not ashamed of it. My heart is true to her, and she knows it. I am willing to change my ways to better myself, not to change who I am, and I am willing to put the past behind us.

At this point, I am determined to bring our marriage back. Maybe not at tomorrow's marriage counsoling session, maybe not a month from now, but I will keep trying. If a guy comes between us, I will be better than that guy. Things will definitly be different later on, but I still believe she loves me.... well let me rephrase it... I still believe we love each other.