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Moan.

My parents have done nothing but moan at me all day... all week infact. It's now getting to the point where i can't take it anymore.

I tried to involve them in my life by inviting them to come out for food with me and my boyf but all they did was moan and look annoyed. I can't stand it anymore. Yes, i love them but i can't physically or mentally cope with being in the same house as them much longer.

If it was just me and my boyf living toghter life would possibly be a hell of a lot easier.

Being here is driving me insane at a rapid rate. Not having my laptop does not help AT ALL i can't even do anything without being interupted every five minutes.

I dont know if i should cry laugh or scream. One thing i do know is that i haven't done my college work so i'll get bollocked for not doing it tormorow. I can't do it now. I can't think in a normal enough way to attempt to do anything but moan about how "hard" my life is.

My life is quite easy really, i'm just ungrateful and selfish.

I miss my boyf already. I think he's the only thing that keep's me sane. Sometime's i push him away just so i know he'll come back. Sometime's i do it because i'm scared. Mostly i just do it becuase i'm not that much of a nice person.

I have no real reason to complain about anything, but i shall continue.

I'm not okay. I should just admit it and be done with it.

I can't keep pretending to be okay for much longer either, and i'm dreading that moment when i completly fall apart and repeat the past.

I feel like i'm trapped in the same thing always. My friend described it perfectly."It's like a ride at a theme park! Just as you get to the top and you think your going up all the way, you go back down lower than you were before.

I MISS K. I love you K. I love you more than anything or anyone.

I thing i'll go to my room now and be a cliche' emo, I'll cry and sob and cut myself untill my hearts content.