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molly_desire's Blogs in June 2008

Admitting The Fantasy Is Over.
T here has been many a time where i thought the whole Alex drama was over, Then it has come back and bitten me in the arse. This time i really think it is over though. Beyond repair. I miss him so, So much. Every minute, Every hour, And every moment of the day. I miss his smile and that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-03 12:33:55 | Rating:

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Top Cat.
So here i am at 2.38am sitting listening to the pokemon music playing away on my ds and longing for a purpose in life. I wonder how many people are awake at this hour. If curiousty killed the cat i'd be the top cat to be killed. No drugs for five days i think. I'm not sure. I'm......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-04 21:56:39 | Rating:

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Impulse.
The forehead thats suppoused to help my headache is doing nothing but burning me. In a way i'm thankful for that small amount of pain. That little bit of a question already answered without me having to even think of it. To say i want to die would be an over expression. I've wanted to......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-17 09:40:44 | Rating:

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Sometimes.
You say to little. Or to much. Or it is to quite. Or to loud. To long. To short. I miss Claire. I want her back. At the same time i want her to stay and get better. I still do not forgive her parents for not knowing their own daughter. Or even making the effort to get to know her. She......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-18 06:47:08 | Rating:

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I hate...
... How i've become this weak needy person who need's to be loved. I hate the fact it feel's like my heart is breaking in more than a million ways. I hate having nobody to love And, Having nobody to love me back. I hate the way people make out that love is the most amazing thing in the......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-21 16:57:01 | Rating:

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You Don't Miss The Water Untill The Well Run's Dry
It is true. You do not miss what you had untill it is gone. Kettering flat was nice. Sat in all day getting stoned. Almost Nirvana. If only we argued less. Could have still been there infact. If only we argued less. If only he drank less. If only i shouted less. If only he was a better......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-22 19:02:37 | Rating:

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Giant Womb.
I feel like i'm trapped in one big giant womb. Everyone spend's all there time fussing. Feeding me. Protecting me. Worrying about me. It's one big constant battle to keep me alive. I hate. I could not care less if i am selfish, Or maybe even warped. I'd just like to die now. I'd just like......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-23 07:57:04 | Rating:

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Circles.
The boy has been nothing but an arsehole to me Yet, Here i am sitting alone in my stuffy room crying over him for the third night in a row. It's amazing how one person can bring so much sadness. Admittidly i miss my Claire bear like a bitch. All the crap that i would complain about in a......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-25 13:23:30 | Rating:

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The Mol.
1.44 am Still awake. I went to indulge in a few of those lovely little mols. 2 went down. One touched my throat. Right at the back. That is where the problems always begin you see. I can dry swallow about 90 pills. Fact. I prefer small sugur coated pills. Slip down lovely they do.......Read More