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Attatchment.

Life is ordinary once again. I wish to God this thing had spell checker. When i sit down and reflect on the past i now miss the drama. Just shows how times change.

I feel worry free and happy. I am sick to death of worrying about things that simpily do not matter. Maybe that is how things have become ordinary again. None the less it is irrelevent.

Back at College. No longer a bum. If i am being honest it is shit. Boring and repeative. This assaingment bollocks is also irrating me quite badly. One of the Assaingments alone is insulting. Task 5 requires you to make a poster for FEDRA. I am not 6. The enjoyment of poster making never really began nor shall it ever. Not being a gifted artist it is just a subtle form of torture. Fuck it i say. I can see some kind of arguement arising over this poster.

Yes, I am bored of talking about my life. Unfortuntly i am to self centered to know much about anyone elses. So this is what we are stuck with.

It's the people that you ignore that make the most sense. I think this is why i am begining to get attatched to him. Like some silly school girl crush but, Not quite. I'm not sure really where my mind is. For some reason i trust him. I should not but, I can almost see his nice side. And i am attracted to that. However, 90% of the time he is an arsehole. Can we see some Deja vu here? It's like a relationship without the commitment. Perhaps that is what i like. At the back of mind i know i am just another name on the long old list. And i think in the back of his mind i mean the same to him. Theres an unwritten rule for the mutual respect of that. Yes, I am aware i am talking bollocks. Again. I have added that i do not know where my head is at.

The font changes randomly from time to time. It really fucks me off.

I need a holiday. I am sick of seeing the same faces and places. I would like to feel the sun on my skin and the sand beneath my feet. I would say meet new people but, I do not like meeting new people. The fact i do not know them put's me right off. Also i am not very people friendly. Apparently i am blunt. To tell a person face to face that you dislike them is not bluntness but, Much needed politeness.

I am bored. 10.39 pm. What have i done today you might ask? Nothing i would have to reply. The fact i am now speaking to myself, Via tap tapping away shows that maybe, My fragile old brain box is at an unsecure peak.

I pretty damn fed up with feeling tired. I sleep. I wake up. I am still tired. I sleep longer. Wake up. Still tired. I do not sleep and i am still tired. Really, What is that all about? It is fucking shit. Also unexplainable.

Peace

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