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Fat.
I am fat.
10 stone 11.
Thats nearly 11 stone, I'm 5ft1 that makes me very over weight.
I'm stiting here trying not to freak out. Last time i looked at the scales i weighed excatly 10 stone. 11 pounds i have gained. This is why i don't eat... This is why i wont be eating for a very long time.
I am trying really, really hard not to freak out. It's not working at all.
Smile pretend it does not bother you.
Keeps deleting what i type. Very annoying indeed.
I will sit here and pretend that it's not making me want to trow up all 10 stone 11 of my body weight.
Alex weighs 8 and a half stone. That makes me 2 and a half stone heavier than him. I feel sick. I feel disgusted. How could i let myself slip so far up the scales.
No food.
No food.
No food.
No food.
Boredem and food make rea a fat child.
Boredem and food make Rea a fat child.
Bordem and food make Rea a fat child.
Boredem and food make Rea a fat child.
Do not even look at food. Do not even smell food. Prepare to feel hungry. Like a starving african. Starve yourself would you.
It still has not sunk in. I dont want it to. I am so disgusted in myself. This is mine and yours to keep. This little secret no one else will know but us. I must not eat. I loved those days where i would perhaps eat nothing but soup in a matter of weeeks. I loved those days where i'd fit into a 10 and it would be to loose so i'd push myself to fit into an 8. My boobs always let me down. Not conforming to my size 8 wishes. Popping out making it impossible to fit them in. No more food. No more smiles. No more munchies. No more munch. Starve and fucking enjoy your punishment.
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Posted by molly_desire on 2008-05-25 13:57:24 | Rating: | Views: 107
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not eating will not make you thin. if you do not eat you turn muscle into fat! you must eat and exercise. hope your not too depressed about it. remeber that everything takes time.
Yadokta
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Posted by yadokta
on 2008-05-25 14:04:07
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Yadokta is right darling, dont starve yourself. You will regret it in the longrun. It will take over your life and blind you to all the lovely things you will be missing out on in life. Ive got a friend that is dealing with this right now.
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Posted by smileforthecamera
on 2008-05-25 14:15:29
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