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     *Sighs*
     Well here it almost Christmas and I am NOT going to be able to be with my family
this year. My husband isn't going to be able to spend any time with his kids *which break's
my heart, I know a child needs both parents in their lifes*....I hate the thought of not
being able to get to see my mom this Christmas, I am so sad right now! My husband always says "Christmas is just another day to me", but I on the other hand don't feel
that way. You know there is a bigger meaning to Christmas then gifts *I mean I could care
less whether I get anything or not* and I know its to celebrate the life of JESUS but, I also find it about family and getting to be together and enjoy eachothers company and love. That is why I am so sad to know I won't get that this year, just a few phone calls
and E-mails from my mom but, that will be IT! I wish we had a car ....I mean at least for
Christmas anyways, maybe we might be able to find someone to borrow their car from, who knows. I hope so because I miss my family so much and need to be with them so bad. Christmas is also going to be hard this year on the count of us loosing someone close to
us, our aunt Lori ....its going to be hard not having her around this year. I hope that is with God and looking down on us and her kids during the holiday season, and know we all
do miss her and love her more then anything.
     Being stuck here all the time, going on 2 months BTW is driving me INSANE! I know I can't get much more insane then I already am but, it is getting worse...and I am starting
to feel that! And Lord knows I love my husband like crazy but, he is getting on my nerves lol he tends to sing a lot when he is on the computer playing his usual card games and any other time it might seem cute but, lately where I have been STRESSED, it just drives me mad and I end up screaming at him to shutup but, thankfully he knows the stress I am under and tries to make me laugh by acting goofy.....sometimes it works and sometimes it don't! Like I said I love him but, the man CAN NOT sing :)!
     Lately I am sure if I should laugh, cry, or scream! Man seems I have been doing them all.....my emotions are on over load big time.
Happy Holidays all!!!