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sorry to all of u who checked back yesterday and found nothing! i went to a girls confrence and didnt get back until late, so i didn't have time to make a new post, but now i am! so be happy. ok... so at this conference well, to start off i really needed it. i was feeling distant from God, and i just was not in a very good state to be in. I was having trouble focusing and was almost at the poing of thinking God doensn't care about me :(. see, i told u it wasn't good. so, we went to this confrence called "Girls Reflecting Glory" this year the theme was all about your tounge and what kind of damage you can do with your words. When i came i was just going through the motions at worship. but then, the next day i asked God to open my heart and show me what i needed to see that weekend. and, to tell u the truth he definatly did that. i had chills every time i prayed, i knew he was there and i have renewed faith. I went to a workshop on speech (like cussing) and one on lying. both of those i have problems with. they really hit home with me though. one of the verses that we learned in the one about lying says when you like u hate the one you hurt. i don't hate the person i lie to EVER and i don't have God. and that just made me start bawling because i knew that i needed to change and that most importantly i NEEDED to change. i'm not saying i'm perfect because i'm christian and as you read these you'll come to know that more than ever. i don't have to be perfect though. God loves me for who i am and is there to help me become better. then, i learned something else while i was there. i have a very bad self-image. i dont like the way i look and i feel like i dunno... that people think i'm ugly because i think i'm ugly. there was this slide-show at the conferance at the very end of pictures they took during the weekend. playing was the song beautiful by bethany dillion. if you have never heard that song i encourage u to listen to it. i relized even though some of those girls aren't the skinnest, or hate somehting about themselves we're all extremly beautiful. We cryed together and laughed together, and just got all of the stress out of our lives and were free to be just girls, but by being who we wanted to be and who we are we all became beautiful, on the inside and the outside. if your reading this and u don't believe in God send me a message. i won't force anything on you i just want to talk. so, that was my weekend! have a great week and come visit me soon.
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