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If you are new to this story, please follow the links below to catch up before you read this or you might miss the point lol
Intro http://www.thoughts.com/missmarie/blog/dream-batha-story-499 15/
Part 1 http://www.thoughts.com/missmarie/blog/mystery-man-a-story-i -will-always-be-with-you-69388/
Part 2 http://www.thoughts.com/missmarie/blog/mystery-man-a-story-p art-2-88633/
Part 3, The Letter....
"My Dearest Marie,
I am lost without you, I need to see your face, look into your eyes, touch you, feel you, hear your heart beating with mine, now that i cannot dream i am left with my imagination, its been almost three months since we last saw each other,since i left the hospital. I feel like i am losing my mind, not being able to talk to you or see you, i want you so badly, and i cant even tell you.
I thought if i wrote you this letter i may feel a little better, but just thinking your name has shallowed my breath, am I going insane chasing after what may be a figment of my imagination, or are you out there somewhere, dreamless like I am, lonely, lost in a dark world, we have to be together soon or i don't know what i may do, i so despeately want to feel you in this world, i don't care if the dreams return or not, i want you, need to hold you, this imaginary relationship we had was never enough, it never could be for two red blooded human beings, with desires and needs for each other.
I have never loved anything or anyone like I am in love with you, even the dreams and thoughts of you make my heart race harder and faster, i think sometimes i may lose conciousness when i cannot stop myself from wanting you and thinking of you in such ways that perhaps i should be ashamed of, but i'm sorry i cant control this feeling inside any longer, i have to find you, and i feel like i have let you down because i have not held to my promise to track you down, have you forgotten about me? do you dream of someone else at night? or do you still wait for me in the candle lit warmth of your bathroom, remembering the closest i ever came to showing you the pleasures that i am so willing to give, the kiss we shared could have destroyed my soul if it were to have never happened, you don't realise that i had no control every time that we have met in slumber, else i may have shown you what you mean to me when i had the chance.
I feel that i have wasted so many opportunities to hold you, chances i will never see again, I have tried so hard to find you, so hard to sleep..to dream, but it has all been a waste of time, I know we are still worlds appart and i am no closer to having what I have dreamed for . I don't think that i can go on anymore, no one will ever be you, and I don't even want to try to find any one other than the woman of my dreams.
I have decided, perhaps there is only one way that we may see one another again, even just one last time so that i may kiss you goodbye, there is only one thing for it, On this letter i have written everything that i remember of you, and i hope that perhaps someone may one day track you down and hand this to you, so that you may perhaps understand what i am about to do.
I pray that you sleep tonight else one last chance to meet will be missed and gone forever.
I will love you forever Marie
with all my heart
David x
P.S, i am sorry "
David stood from his desk, looking at the clock on the wall, he took a large gulp of Whisky, then carefully folded the letter and placed it into the envelope in front of him, checking the time once more, he saw that it was just past 1am, 'almost time' he thought to himself, and smiled nervously.
Taking the letter and the bottle of Glenmorangie, forgetting the glass, he walked out of the living room, turning the light off as he took one last look behind him at the room, 'there's nothing here to miss me' he whispered, and started upstairs.
Entering the bathroom, he had already drawn the bath before he sat down to write, he moved the water with his fingers, 'must be hot enough to hold its warmth for a while yet i suppose' he sighed, again talking to himself, he was always aware of how very much alone he was in this house filled with ghosts.
David had set out every candle he could find and set them all around the room, lighting them one by one, finally lighting himself a Regal cigarette, taking a seat on the floor, whisky bottle to his lips, almost choking on his tears he set the bottle down next to him, looking up at the cabinet above the wash basin, he felt a wave of confidnece fill him, jumping up to his feet "It's time now" shaking off the tears, trying his best to clear his head. He reached for the cabinet door, opening it carefully as if something might jump out at him, instantly he spotted what he knew was already there, and grabbed for the large bottle of tablets, as he read the label for the tenth time, thoughts of Marie washed into his mind, and he colapsed to the floor crying hysterically, curling up like a child, holding his knee's to his chest he sobbed uncontrolably.
Finally the tears subsided, David stood and began to undress, placing his clothes in the washing basket he smiled to himself, then turned to the pills, the whisky and the warm water of the bath, at speed he grabbed the bottle of pills and the malt, flipped the lid from the pills and put the bottle to his lips, 'Don't think about it David' he told himself and filled his mouth with the chalky tablets, washing them down straight away with the scotch, he stepped into the tub, Malt in hand, he sat down in the deep water, and leant back into the warmth, sipping and swallowing every minute or so, he began to feel drowsey, the warmth was relaxing his whole body, as he started to lose conciousness, he started to sing quietly to himself as this world began to fade from his mind ..........."Stars shining bright above you, Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you", Birds singin’ in the sycamore trees, Dream a little dream of me.........."
to be continued...........
I know its short but you will have to wait for part four lol, my mind isnt really on it today xx
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Posted by missmarie on 2008-05-27 13:55:30 | Rating: | Views: 154
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This absolutely blew me away hun.
As to where you get your inspiration for this writing i have no idea.
It was well worth the wait.
As for the next part, don't leave it to long though.xx
A thousand stars and more hun. xx
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Posted by bubblydi
on 2008-05-27 14:28:15
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I enjoy visiting and catching up with you.
I hope you will still be there, shinning us with your comments, thoughts, and wisdom.
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Posted by Sober
on 2008-05-27 22:21:23
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missmarie, wow, your dreams i can't even imagine having a dream like this. i hope for a better ending, this is so sad. so i will wait for part 4 :P
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Posted by pixierose
on 2008-05-27 23:58:10
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WOW marie! wasn't expecting this! tragicly sad, but a great read, can't wait for the next installment!
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Posted by spiritualcoma
on 2008-05-28 02:08:26
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WOW!!
I, like pixie, cant wait for part 4!!!
you have a way with words, marie...loved this!
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-05-28 03:07:08
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MORE MORE MORe!! OMJ!!! missmarie where will it go?! Oh I'm stuck! thats it I'm staying right here till you let me know when the next one is coming!!!
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Posted by tonyrayhutchison
on 2008-05-28 07:04:23
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wow! i'm blown away with this one ... hope to read the next post really very soon.
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Posted by DreamingOfBruxelles
on 2008-05-28 08:03:38
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Thanks guys, i was on such a roll part four is done too! i have been inspired lol and about time too i say ha ha
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Posted by missmarie
on 2008-05-28 11:02:00
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