I do hope that no one takes offence to this post, this post is not an accusation, nor is it an attack on anyone in particular, this is me giving my opinion on a topic that no one will discuss out loud, but we do all have an opinion about it.

There has been alot of discussion of late about people who have more than one account here on thoughts, on one hand there is nothing wrong at all with doing this, i myself commented recently about how, when i first arrived here, i wrote all my feelings down and expressed myself openly and honestly, i could do this because i didn't know anyone personally here, but now, well, when i feel angry and upset i can't bring myself to write about it because there are so many people here who know me now, i wouldn't want to worry or upset them, plus at the moment i am struggling with trust, i know its silly really, but this is the reason i might be tempted to start a second, totally anonymous blog account!

then there are the people who tell lies, big lies, for attention, or just because they don't want to reveal their true selves yet, but then, again, they make friends and find that people really do care, they start to feel bad, but think if they come clean then they might lose their new found friends, but i feel that isn't true, i think if you wrote a true and honest post explaining why the lies began and how now you realise that you want to be yourself here, maybe people would understand,

I know a couple of weeks ago, there was someone here, who came to spy on another member, now although she publicly came clean, many people decided that what she had done was wrong, and it i think was a partial factor in the member not coming here as much anymore, that person feels as though their writing has been stiffled now, because they can't be honest with their words anymore, fearing that the 'spy' might come back,  so i guess he would seriously consider starting a new account.

then there is the other kind of attention seeker, the one who wants pity, has many many many friends, is very popular, but cannot stand anyone to disagree with them, but rather than argue their point, they have other accounts, to use purely for argument and confrontation.

Bringing to attention the other problem, when you are a long term member, we know how you write, we get to know you very deeply through your words, so it can be hard to fool us when you pretend to be someone else.

Then there are just the annonymous guys, the ones who really keep themselves to themselves, they are doing no harm and who would know if they had multiple accounts.

i think if things keep on going the way they are that it is going to become very hard to trust anyone here, people are starting to feel as though their kindness and good nature is being taken advantage of, we here do care very much if someone is unhappy, and we worry and maybe talk to you like we are you parents or big sister/brother, that doesn't mean we disrespect you, it means that we care deeply about your welfare, so there really is no need to lie about yourself here on thoughts, we welcome everyone, we all have our problems, and have no right to judge anyone's life choices when i am sure most of us have not lead our lives perfectly

right now i feel

Disapointed
concerned
worried
scared
lonely
doubtful
wary
gutted

that is the first time in weeks i have been honest about how i feel inside but i dont want anyone to worry, i just want absent friends to return, and for us all to get along, love and feel loved without having to be dishonest, i want to trust new people when i meet them, and i want to be truthful about whats happening in my life, i want to write in my blogs, i want to read every entry that is written by others, i don't want to know everyones full name and address/phonenumbers, but i do want to feel that i am reading honesty and getting to know a real person, i don't want to hear my heart break again by someone pulling at my heart strings, playing with my emotions, when all that person wanted was popularity and hits! i want to make true friends and i want to keep them x

i repeat, this is not an attack on a particular person, there have been many cases of this kind of thing lately so please dont take offence

Peace