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bitches try to kick me out of a open party
and for some reason i ran away like a little bitch
but i was ready to smash them,
if only if i had a bottle
got let back in
adn then there is my ex
we had sex on frida 3 times if i didn't tell you that already...
and we kissed tonight
and he has a girlfriend
i don't like her
and she is so wrong for her
not saying i'm write for him
but she got him kicked out of school
and now people are saying
there going to go to a bording school together like come on
he is so stupid but i can't tell him that
because i do know how much he loves her
but then how can he love her
if he is still getting with me
it confused me
and i don't know was i feel for him
i don't know if it is jelouse that
she is wiht her or
if i'm angry
well i now i'm angry
but i odn't know if i want him
i know he does't want me
but what if there is apossiblitly
see here i go again
i have a great guy
that lives far away
and i'm thinking of my ex that made my life hell and heven at the same time
the guy that hurt me so much
i thought i was over him
but maybe i'm not
and omg
this is so anoing
why do i compilacated everything?
i want to talk to him but what do i say?
i don't even know what i want
or anything
but there is so much going though my mine that i just don't know what too say
or do
or think
or feel
it's so hard
begin 15
it's so hard begin me
i wonder why god puts me though so much
you see i think that god dishes out whatever comes to the poeple
and so i wonder why he has put me though so much
somedays i even wonder on when enough will be enough
how much more do i have to go though
untill i give up
or i get something good in my life
and it stays with me
i need mr right
to come get me now.
i need my life to become normal
tobecom not different
not hard
to become something i like
not saying i don't like my life i do
but the stuff that has happen to be is hard for me to deal with sometimes
and i haven't even had a break down
but i know it's soon
anyway thats me for now
so everyone peace out
enjoy the rest of my blogs
keep in touch
MADDY
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Posted by missinghome on 2008-05-17 10:52:00 | Rating: | Views: 117
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Hey hunny, you sound like you are going through a lot.
You say your ex loves his girlfriend but he still slept with you.
To me that is not love, he seems to be dangling both of you on a thread, he wants his cake and wants to eat it to.
If you did getback with this guy, how do you know he won't cheat on you the way he has done with his current girlfriend.
I wish you all the luck in the world hun.
Our teenage years are the worst.
If you want to talk, i have a good listening ear. xx
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Posted by bubblydi
on 2008-05-18 07:31:34
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