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In 2006 i had moved again back to Gladstone with my mum.
it was perfect.
found a guy that i was well you could say ' I fell in love with'
he was perfect
i had always be picking about my guys,
they really couldn't have anything wrong with them.
until he came along.
his name was Michael Luke delta.
now Michael he treated me nice
told me everything i wanted to hear
he was what i wanted in a man.
he really made me believe me that he loved me
until
he cheated on me after 6 months
while i was in Brisbane.But those 6 months I feel in love with him more than anything in my life, family friends he was it. He made me feelI can’t even explain it.
well i didn't take him back.
(biggest mistake)
he moved on while i stand on the sidelines waiting for them to be over.
i couldn't take it any longer so..
i told dad i wanted to move back with him.
(another mistake)
well on my “go away” party,
add a bit of alcoholic and you i slept with him.
i went back to his house
and had sex with him.
in his room while there where other people in there.
again all those feelings came back.
now if you ever been in love you will know
that it is so much harder to forget them.
the next day i went home.
ran to my best friends place.
and told her everything how i felt.
that week we rang me ever night
and we arranged to meet again.
i stayed at his house.
twice
it was great.
told me everything i wanted to hear.
even that he broke up with his girlfriend and he asked me out
what i didn't know is that he was still going out with her.
and that he broke up with me after he got sex
said that i was moving back
and he didn't have a reason to break up with her.
like i wasn't a big reason.
well i said fine and walked home.
that week we talked and
flirted at school.
ran around
you know the school love that you have.
it was fun.
well anyway i had 2 weeks left
till i was leaving and all i wanted
was for him to come up to me kiss me and tell me not to go
and i would have unpacked.
but he didn't
those 2 weeks went fast i i saw him sometimes
it was great.
sometimes it was with her and i could feel my heart begin ripped out.
i can still feel it
to this day.
well anyway the day had came i told him
what time my flight left what time i was there
everything.
just wanted him to come to the airportjust before I leave yell my namecome and hug me and tell he loves me can’t live with meyou know that blah blah how it is in the movies.
when i got back to Adelaide,
he tole me that i shouldn’t have left,
that he still loved me.
that all he wanted was me
my heart, my words, my life,
stop
i couldn't do anything because i knew that
what i had done was the wrong thing.
but what was even more wrong.
was that he me made leave
and didn't save me.
well we told each other every night that we loved each other.
and that i and he want’s me to come back.
but i couldn't cos my dad was so ill.
so i stayed.
well the time went by,
us fighting than making up.
me falling for him everyday.
first thought was him
and my last.
he was in my dream
i could see him around the corner at school.
but i could never touch him.
he was the reason i went to school.
because i believed that he would be there.
just to say that he loved me.
well he never came to school cos i was over 30000km always but still.
i went everyday even knowing that.
i texted him every minute of my waking night.
well my time had come to go back up for a holidaythis was the time I knew that once I got on the plane I wasn’t going to want to come back.Well anyway I went.Had bee packed for about a month.I was sure that I loved himAnd this was the time to know if he loved me And to see if I loved him to.I got off the plane.Stayed in Brisbane for a night.And than on the road.Every hour we would text each other saying there was only 4 ,5,6,7 hours left.How many we said it. I got into there happy as can be.I went to a friends house right near his.He came up and I as I saw him I couldn’t look at himCos I was so happy that I didn’t believe it was trueWell anyway we didn’t talk, I seen him and than had to go back in.Gave him a hugOh that momentJust to hug himI didn’t want to stop and I knew he didn’t etherFrom the way that he hold me.My worries of my dad.Everything just left.Just remembering it now,Makes me fall in love all over again with him. Well anyway the 3 weeks went by, We fought a lot. But made up like 5 minutes lateIt was greatI can’t remember when I was that happy in so long.I was like winning 1 million dollars I saw him or talked to him even thought about him.Well we knew that time was coming. But during the weeks I was there.I told mum how much I hated it there that I wanted to move back.That’s what I’m doing now.I get to move back and be with him.Have the feeling of winning a million dollars everyday Every second ,minute of my life. -
i'm 15 in love,
leaving my family.
for someone that cheated on me,
played and used me
but still everyday i find it in my heart to love
him that little bit more.
so for thoes who think that love can't be found at a young age
or you can't forgive the poeple that hurt you alot.
take it from me.
love works in so many ways
you will never understand
it
but forgive and forget.
because you never know
they might just be the one
and after awhile you will reliase
that and it might be to late.
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Posted by missinghome on 2007-11-27 04:06:06 | Rating: | Views: 88
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i pray that he will be every wonderful thing that you see in him, sweet one. love does come in like a flood, doesn't it?
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Posted by AllThingsBuck
on 2007-11-28 16:59:53
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I just hope it all does turn out good in the end hun.
It would be nice to have a fairytale love, xx
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Posted by bubblydi
on 2008-05-18 07:48:27
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