Thinking of the days gone by
remembering when i used to cry
I cry no more
I sit in a state
Filling myself full of hate
Not hate for others
Just hate for me
Wondering why this ever could be
I have so much more
than i care to believe
Children that love me
the air that i breathe
I know i am wrong
with the thoughts i have
I try and run
but always find the wrong path
My thoughts just sit there
pounding in my head
I know how wrong it is
to think about death
Don't worry
I won't do anything to hurt
Its just the rantings of someone
whos trying to crawl out of the dirt
So thank you to all
of my friends who care 
And thank you to Thoughts
for being here