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 Too selfish to trust!
How old must you be to figure out right from wrong?

When do you truley know yourself?

Do you ever really know the true you?

How do you know who to trust?

Can you completely trust anyone?

Do we ever show anyone our innermost, thoughts, dreams and emotions?

I want to know if i can really trust myself to trust others.

For as long as i can remember i have always had trust issues.

Even when i really think i can trust someone i still hold back.

I want to learn to be able to completely open up.

Not to everyone, maybe just a few, i want to know what it would feel like to have everything about
myself out in the open so to speak.

Is it a bad thing for someone to know everything there is to know about you?

I I I I I I  Is what i am afraid of.

Deception and betrayal too.

Could it ever be possible to do and be comfortable with?

I am not too sure.
    Posted by misselusive on 2008-09-05 18:32:45 | Rating: | Views: 104
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I dont think so. You cant trust anyone. And when you find someone you think you can confide in they usually do something to ruin that, and even if you do find someone to confide in, you usually dont open up completely, ever. Well thats how I feel anyway. As soon as you let yourself be vulnerable around someone, they usually know it and use it against you some how some way. Sorry, just going by past experiences, with friends, family, and boyfriends. I dont have much faith in people at all.
Posted by  sb04634864  on 2008-09-06 09:35:09 
  
I don't see it as selfish not to trust because the history of the way we are treated as people makes us that way, therefore it is an earned feeling: untrust.

As children we trust too much, no one is born not trusting it is our human nature to put too much stock into people when we were younger. Then, at least in my experience, 9 out 10 people you put stock in let you down and become the thing that is the back of our mind everytime someone asks for trust from us.

There are some, oh what a small number, of people you can trust but the benefit of the doubt is not something I have to offer anymore. Not selfish to ask for it to be earned.
Posted by  Katydids_and_daisies  on 2008-09-06 11:38:08 
  
Trust should be earned.
Trust should never be given blindly.
Love covers a multitude of sins, but being wise in our selection on who to trust....covers a multitude of hurt feelings.
Love you.
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2008-09-06 12:11:08 
  
Good questions Lovely Di. I've found that opening up leaves me wonderfully vunerable and I usually get hurt, but I'll try it again anyway.
Posted by  Pauligan  on 2008-09-07 20:17:53 
  
You've opened yourself up to me in the past dear. I will continue to keep our conversations sacred and just between us. Love you much!!!! ooxx
Posted by  scarboroughfair  on 2008-09-14 21:04:24 
  
from my own experiences,I've learned that you can only trust a few to a certain extent. I would never expose my entire being to any one person, thats ammo for their arsenal should they ever need to shoot me down. Its not completely insane to trust people though, i trust ppl to do what I know them for doing.
Posted by  tluvstee  on 2008-09-17 23:28:48 
  
I miss you.
You really are elusive now.
Love you.
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2008-09-26 12:12:43 
  
I agree with DifficultSoul... trust has to be earned, then you can be content that you've done the best you and the other person can to reassure each other that trust is appropriate and desireable. Then, if it goes wrong you can either say I Got It Wrong... which leads you to distrust yourself... or, We Grew Apart.. which allows yourself an understanding of your experience. Which would you prefer?

Trust has always been a major issue with me, and I think there are still parts, aspects of myself that I reveal to one and not another... and you know that to be true, don't you honey? I am a social chameleon... i think we all may be to a greater or lesser degree. It's all about protecting ourselves.

I find that if/when I do open the doors for all to see exactly who I am (shock horror!)... nothing significant happens.... which is great, but in turn makes me paranoid and I find myself deliberately pushing the self-destruct button and closing a few of the doors again!

Anyways... i love my little secrets... it's what makes me interesting...hehehe
Posted by  tantrictouch  on 2008-10-01 18:47:25 
  
Hey...somebody loves you.
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2008-10-07 13:16:55 
  
sshhhh...it's a secret...it's me.
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2008-10-07 13:17:53 
  
Update...so I can read your mind!
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2008-10-24 12:03:38 
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