View Blog    Strike Mode I'm six weeks away from my due date...and we just got strike notice. This means that I get to work overtime for the next two weeks...leaving me no time to do everything I was planning on. It seems like I have something to do every moment from now until labor. I guess that's good because I'll be busy, but part of me wanted the calm before the storm. Not the storm before the hurricane. Will is home this weekend. This time I know nothing is going to happen, so I don't carry the anxiety that I used to... Part of me wants to write down for public eyes everything that happened to me, just based on the comments that I got. But I guess I will only say this: I am who I am because of what I've been through; I'm the sum of my experiences. Yes, I've felt pain. Yes I've had to choose whether or not to have an abortion. Yes, I've lived through my own fair share of abuse, and violence, alcoholics, and women-haters. I've fought my fair share of battles, and guess what...I'm not even 20 yet. I've had a six year old tell me a story about how daddy got angry and stabbed him, and now he's in hiding.  I get pain. It is not my goal to inflict it on others, but if I'm a heartless bitch for writing down what I feel on a website...if that makes me numb to the suffering of others, I may as well say that everyone else whose dealt with pain has no more a right than me. I'm not saying I have it bad, because I don't. I live the life of a princess because I make it that way...but I think life is all a matter of perspective. You have to choose to be happy...and it often times doesn't work, and you often times find yourself crumpled on the shower floor, letting the icy water run down you and sobbing until there's nothing left to cry. But somehow we escape the crucible before we die, and live one more pathetic day. Forgive me for trying to focus on the good.     Posted by misschief31 on 2007-12-05 00:04:00 | Rating: | Views: 49     Email This to a Friend Friend's Email *    Friend's Name*    Your Name*    Security code*    Refresh Image                 Print This Blog Post     Bookmark: Delicious  Digg  Reddit  Facebook  StumbleUpon    Permalink:      Blog Comments Nothing found Would you like to comment?     (Maximum characters: 5000)     You have characters left.      Security code:                                                     Refresh Image

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