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Hello. My name is Aria. I'm a teenager with depression and a wacky life. My mum has bipolar and my father is a hebephile. My parents are divorced and I live with ym mother and step-dad. I no longer see my father after him hitting on one of my best friends.
At school, I'm an outcast. I don't conform to the other kids and usually go against the crowd. I'm very open to people and often find myself helping my friends with their problems. I hate school. I'm often called anorexic, a whore, and "emo". I'm not any of those. I have a fast metabolism, but actually eat a ton. I'm called a whore because I was sexually abused and the guy who did it went around and told everyone about what he had forced me to do, leaving out the forced part. I'm called emo, which is like the new gothic in my opinion, because I wear what I want to and don't dress all preppy.
Guys for some odd reason like me.....well, not popular guys, but normal and unpopular guys often seem to. I had my first kiss when I was 3. I'm mostly friends with guys, and they usually end up liking me. My best friend.....is actually now my boyfriend....-_- But we're doing great so far, so that's good. ^_^
I basically hate my life, but I live it because.....well, I don't want to make the same mistake my aunt did. I want to grow-up and become a bartender. I want to be a musical theatre major and preform, but be a bartender on the side. Which means extra school for bartending.
I love anime and Japan. I've been watching anime, ever since I was 4, when my uncle introduced me to Evangelion. I watched all of the movies that were out at the time at his house. In elementary school, my love for anime and Japan grew in thrid grade, when I became obsessed. I starting going to cons last year and am currently working on a moogle costume to cosplay next.
I've started seeing lately that I'm a farely angry person. I'm often betrayed by friends and used by guys. I feel worthless. Like nobody really cares about me. I barely trust anyone anymore and often question if people even like me at all. My best friend betrayed me recently. She changed........she turned into a wanna-be prep. I couldn't believe her. She used to be like me.......she used to be herself.......now she hangs out with wasteful two-faced bitches.
Another thing that's been bothering me.........more and more people are started to copy me...........if I say I like something, they agree with me............but if they say they like something and I comment about how I really don't like it..........they suddenyl change their mind and agree with me. It makes no sense to me. The more you copy me, the less I'm going to like you. So why be that stupid?
I don't get our world. I hate it. I hate America. I have so much hate......barely any love anymore. It seems like everyone throws those words around nowadays "I love you" . All the girls say it to their boyfriends and they say it back. Teens are so stupid. They don't understand that it's about a one in a million chance, they actually love them. It drives me nuts. All guys care about is sex and all girls care about is being popular.
Why do we live in such an egotistical society? Where no one can walk around without being critized. It's all about what we wear, who we hang out with. Why should it even fucking matter? You're friends aren't you. And an outfit doesn't always say who you are or how cool you are. The cool kids usually turn out to be the losers as adults anyways, so why even bother to try and fit in?
I don't know. Maybe I'm just a crazy teenager who knows nothing.....Hell I am! But......I still believe it. Our society is doomed to fail sometime if we keep going on like this. It really seems like we're all a bunch of teeniebopper losers who need to be taught to be oourselves. I'm glad I'm not scared to be me.
-Aria
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Posted by missariaaaa on 2008-07-22 03:54:46 | Rating: | Views: 107
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:) yay. *claps*. that's all i have to say. hooray and goodnight. teengers are so last year. -_- but! i'm happy that you're with your best friend >_< same thing happened here. hehehe...i hope you feel better...sometime!! :D
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Posted by MissCheesecakeand...
on 2008-07-22 04:06:59
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Amen.
At school, I'm considered either the nerd or the "naturally depressed person" -_-. I'm still trying to figure out whether that's better than artificially depressed.
Lol, I don't like most boys because about half of them are popular -_-'...and I have the suspicion that the ones I befriend are gay, soo...
I'm obsessed with anime. And anything Square Enix/Square Soft. I hope that moogle costume turns out well.
I had a friend who changed like that -_-'. Now she hangs with the crowd that just giggles and disses everyone.
I never notice whether someone's copying me or not O.O. And if they are, whatever floats your boat, dude.
I don't hate the world, but I agree with you on the fact that teens are stupid. Even though I myself am one.
Everywhere you walk, you're being critizied. I've learned to stop caring long ago.
Sorry for writing so much ^_^;. Guess I get a little carried away...
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Posted by ScarletBlack
on 2008-07-22 20:04:38
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It's fine, I talk a lot myself....>_<
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Posted by missariaaaa
on 2008-07-22 22:15:15
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