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update.

i um, broke up with chris... >.>
i feel kinda weird, but its all good.
i told him that i think he'd be happier if he had someone there and i had someone here.
it makes sense, if you ask me.
cause last night, i told him that i was going to wait until i'm 18 to go out and see him, that way there's no consequences. and he said he'd try his hardest to wait for me. so i asked him why he'd have to try his hardest. (for me it's easy to wait for him) but anywho, he told me about how he still goes to parties and there's always Southern Comfort (drink) and that i know what happens when he drinks that stuff. and i said no, what happens? and he said "i can't control myself" and im pretty sure he meant "every girl looks pretty" soooo. i said "see? you drink, i don't. you can't control yourself, i can. i could easily wait for you until then, but i guess you can't. we're just too different sometimes. and it's made me think that......maybe you'd be happier.. if you had someone, well...there. and i had someone here....idk.." and he said "i'm happy with you..... ...but if that's what you think...."
so idk. i still can't help feeling like i made a mistake, maybe.
i have no clue anymore.
i'm going insane.