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angry and sad

i just realised this morning that i've been scamed...
i was really really very extremely mad and furious when i knew it
especially when the person who scamed me is suppposed to be in one of the most morally upright, trustworthy and responsible profession in the world...
i'm not someone who would use swear word but when i realised what happened, i was on the verge of cursing the person in my heart...
well in the end i only managed to use harsh words but that's not the point...
i can't believe that i actually chose to quit what i'm doing now to join them....
maybe i was too naive...maybe i missed school too much...
it seems that those people are as scheming and untrustworthy as the people in the outside world...
i must really learn how to survive...
but it's really hard to accept that these people who were supposed to be good examples actually don't honour their word and took us for granted....
it's disgusting to hear the kind of praise given to them when they are no where as good as jerks...
they don't even consider the feelings of others and have no principles at all
it's revolting to even talk about them any longer...hypocrites...
from now on they don't deserve my respect any more and i mean it...

what makes me even sadder is that i've chose to leave this place that i'm so comfortable with
this place that have housed me for the past few months...
they were really nice and great...
there was no pressure and lots of freedom...
why am i always making choices that i will regret?
i hate this...
but there's no way to salvage the situation
i blame myself...
for i am the one who terminated this very short moment of happiness...
i really regret...i really wanted to stay on...i don't want to go...
as i came here this morning walking through the streets that were so unfamiliar to me months ago but so comfortable to me now, i can't help but feel sad really really very sad...
i'm leaving something that i really liked again...
well to some people it won't make much difference but to me that short extended moment of happiness is very important...
i guess i'm not fated to enjoy happiness
i'm fated to always be sad the sadder the better...
the sadder i feel the more alive i am?
well it's fate, it's fate, it's fate...
the more i don't want it to end that way the more it will end that way
just like that football match and that simple quiz...
i'm doomed to be unlucky...
a symbol of bad luck....
nothing can really adeptly describe the melancholic feeling i have inside...
i will miss all of you...
this shall be my punishment for making the wrong choice...
woah the sadness is so grave that i can feel the physical pain now...
it's all my fault =(