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i'm scared to look at the results
i know i'm not very brave
i'm afraid of the huge disappointment
why must there be comparison?
why can't i do things according to myown standard?
i don't like to be the last
i don't like to be the worst
i'm really afraid that i've done badly
but what can i do?
all has been set
so fast and it's approaching the end of my term soon
the results are sort of finalised
the final exam won't make much difference since everyone is going to work so hard for it
and the bulk of the grade has already been settled
of which i didn't do very well
i admit that i didn't put in all my efforts this term
but i'm very sure that i have put my heart and soul into every assignment
there isn't one assignment that i did carelessly or without caring
i really did try my best
but why has it turn out this way?
are my expectations too high?
but i am not even expecting something of my standard
starting to lose hope
i don't want to do badly
but having expectations makes things worse
i'm so dead
i really feel very trapped
breathless withthe work load
and even more so with the pressure to do well
i think i would have trouble even managing a b
a c grade would mean the end of the world
can't imagine how ugly that would look
and it pulls down my entire points
ugh what should i do?
even divine help won't work now
but it really feels terible to know that you have tried your best and gotten this kind of results
especially when others who are not as deserving gets a higher better grade
this world is so unfair
it does not reward on efforts but on performance
not on character but on result
not on ethics but on outcome
i have got to face up to it
wish me luck
i really want to survive through this
pray........
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Posted by milo on 2009-03-12 11:36:57 | Rating: | Views: 24
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