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I dont know what the hell im going through or what the hell is going on in this brain of mines but I wish it was OVER! I cant stand feeling like this, even worst I hate that I dont know what im feeling. It confusing to me so i refuse to talk to Kevin about it because it will turn out in a stupid way. I hate that I cant change it, im not trying to change me just change my feelings. I hate being confused and feeling stupid and asking for help. Yesterday I hung out with Greg and I didnt know if I wanted him here or not because I wished he wouldn't have came but then I wanted him here because I wanted to hang out with someone. I think im doing it again, replacing Kevin with Greg, trying to fill this empty space between us. Just like with Chris, i picked someone who is so similar to him because Kevin isn't here. I treat these guys like him because I want him. I cant stop wanting him and its making me crazy. I dont want these guys, I dont want to be with them what-so-ever but they are so much like him that I can just imagine but they never know, they unknowingly suffer with only being the second best. I thought and think myself cruel then and now but I cant stop, i wont stop and I just dont know how to stop doing this to guys or wanting Kevin. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY DO I TREAT PEOPLE LIKE THAT? stupidity is now noticed. bye :(
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Posted by milcpoetry66 on 2008-09-28 15:44:17 | Rating: | Views: 21
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If you cannot have the best, you will never be happy. However, these blokes are not even close, so do not worry about it.
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Posted by joseph33
on 2008-09-28 15:59:34
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