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My monthly friend has come to visit and im not too happy about it. I'm so happy that im only have about 4 periods a year but when I do have them its like hell on earth for me. I never know when its coming so it usually comes at school when im not prepared and I usually have to go home. I hate hate hate being a girl sometimes and even worst like I don't think I can have kids because like with me only having 4 periods I am never fertile so yeah, it sucks to be me. But anyway, about the mood swings, I'm having them pretty bad. I can either be super happy, super sad, or super angry for no reason. Today in art I was extremely happy but that changed with a snap of my fingers when I started to get yelled at. Then in chemistry i was extremely pissed and it lasted until I went home and went to sleep. Why cant I just be a boy and have wet dreams or something. Oh god, last night i was feeling really lonely and I put my puppy Bella around me and hugged my other puppy Oreo and had a pillow close on my back to pretend Kevin was had his arms around me while I was sleeping. But that turned sour when I started to dream that he was holding me down and I couldn't move and I woke up in a panic with tears streaming from my face. I threw Bella across the room in an attempt to fight off a invisible Kevin. I went back to sleep without Bella last night. I don't like to feel trapped or feel like im not in control of what happens to me and i start to have this scary panic attacks where I shake and cry myself back to sleep. Wait, I forgot what I was suppose to say hahahahahahaha sorry :) bye
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Posted by milcpoetry66 on 2008-09-24 21:44:23 | Rating: | Views: 47
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I can relate, until I started taking BC pills last year, I had a cycle about the same that you did 3-43 times a year. I developed a cervical problem where the lining of my uterus was over an inch thick and it should only be around 1/8th of an inch thick. i had a hysteroscopy done last May and they scraped the lining, the pain from my cycles was unbearable and then after the procedure, I feel no more pain and I have monthly cycles. I found out two months ago that my cervical problem is back and if it has not cleared itself up by Dec then I am up for surgery again. I was told that it would be a 1/500-1/1000 chance that I might ever have a baby. So I can relate in that area as well. You are young. Give life a try then when you find someone to settle down with, adopt. Its not always the same, but can me more special because you gave a child a second chance. Amazing thought! I pray you heal. Simple as that.
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Posted by heatherslife
on 2008-09-24 23:08:14
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