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Escape

I feel like I haven't written anything in quite a while. I have all these feelings bottled up but I don't exactly know what they are, which is weird. Since Monday I have found myself day dreaming a lot, in class, in the car, in my room, at my friends house, just everywhere. No matter what im doing I just sit there and doze off into another world or something. I was walking out of English and I had to grab my phone so I can listen to some John Mayer because being in English with those idiot students who want to take the easy rode out make me just want to shoot myself in the foot. I got to the stairway, stood against the wall, and closed my eyes and listened to the melody and his words. I could feel people looking at me, walking by me but I didn't care, i needed something to soothe me before I went to art class. In art, I was sitting by the window and pencil sharpener that's kind of in a corner and i turned on John Mayer again and I just stared off into space and ran my fingers through my hair, thought about me and Kevin slow dancing in the class, me touching his face but that all snapped away when Greg came over and hit me with a ball of paper. Again, I was in gym with those stupid girls and I was laying on the floor looking up listening to Secondhand Serenade and I pictured me and Kevin hanging my these pipes, me almost sliding off but every time I would lose my grip he would catch me. I find myself dozing off from the real world a lot and living only in my fantasies and my dreams. I listen to my music and I feel the words in my heart as he speaks them. When I listen to music, I am alive in a different world, a world that only I know and love to be mines. A world where I can do anything and that's how I escape and keep myself from going insane. I am satisfied with my daydreams even though they end because I know whenever I feel alone I will always have my world and I can just turn on my music and escape.