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Quick reflection on my me. Im watching a football game, world cup eliminations, Poland-Slovakia. We r winning 1:0, 86th minute, action out of no-where, slovakian guy crosses God knows where but some other guy manages to get the ball at the other wing of the pitch, crosses it, Polish defender heads it to the goaly who reaches for it and in the same time other Polish defender stepped in the way n touched it, so goally missed it and Slovakian guy kicked it in. Stupid, stupid goal. But i said ok, we are still in controll, we can totally beat them. We start from centre after losing goal and we go into their penalty box, Krzynowek loses the ball, Slovakia counter attacks, another stupid cross to no-one from the wing, and defenders for some reason were lost, I dno wat the fuck they were doing, Slovakian guy legged it in, bounced off the post, goally jumped but it was too late-another Slovakian kicked it under him. 2:1, in 85th minute, with 5 mins to go, goals lost in less than a minute. I couldnt help it i almost shouted(as in i said very loudly) "Kurwa, ja pierdole!" few times( Fuck, Im fucking-im fucking-sounds stupid in english, its a swear expression, u say it when ur pissed, disappointed, shocked, happy, a lot of emotions involved etc). Next 5 mins my dad comes down(thought he was sleeping and my moms gone for the ladies night thing) and this is how convo went
Dad:what are you doing?
Me: watching a game
D:wat did u just say
M:(very calmly-my dad is often refered to by me and Milosz as 'holy father'-he wont let me drink before i turn 18, he tells me to watch my moouth when i say 'faget' for example n tells me to behave myself. Cant believe he was a punk. He probably is strict on me cos his mom was on him. Ohh my grandmas strict, trust me, shes cool but sometimes..im happy im her grandson and not a son:P so back to the convo-) i swore
D: (ok i dnt remember exactly but it went something like this) u dno how to behave urself? Ur in my house, u think ur such an adult now?
M:dad normal reaction, we lost two stupid goals so i swore
D: then u wont watch football games anymore if u dno how to control urself
M: oh like u always can huh? Like u never swore in ur life?
D: im ur dad, u wont lecture me blah blah blah
M: blah blah blah, stop making a big deal outta small things
D:(tried smacking me in the face, i dodged and told him to calm down)go upstairs now and shut up
so i did, after making few more comments n him telling me to shut up(it was more like i dnt wana hear another word!)
Damn my dad can be a pain in the ass. When he found out i was drinking beer n saw me once(in poland) he made this long speech about how im not gna drink anymore n that im not an adult and all that kinda crap. I said its my life n i can do anything i want with it cos i think everything is for ppl if it is in rite amounts. "yes but im ur father n until ur 18 i decide for u" Haha i bet when i turn 18 hes gna come up with something new like"its my house" or "i pay for u" Thats why next summer i wana work. To have my own money. Wont pay me for school but for gas for the car, clothes and going out yeah. When he found me drinking(refering to same thing again) he told me hes disappointed and this is not my level. Haha dad, seriously, u have no idea what kinda person I am, and wats my level. My dads very religious, with strong political and religious views(hes anti communist, very right wing type of guy) and his way of life he wants to make me follow. Well, im not very religious, in fact i read a bible of satan once, n i loved it. Honestly bible of satan is the only book telling the truth about life. Im not satanic, im not demented or watever, im not gna turn into believeing in satan, cos i said religion is not a great part of my life so i dnt rly care that much and i laughed about some stuff in that bible of satan like some magical rituals, haha what a bullshit. But a lot of things were rly smart. Like when someone hits u in the face dnt show him ur other cheek to smack u there(like its said in a proper bible) but u hit him back! Or things about women-they should be treated like men are and not like just house wives and children-machines. There were a lot of smart stuff that had nothing to do with satan or anything that I loved. And then again there was a lot of bullshit too. Anyways- so im not very religious, I party, I make"physical contact" with girls(dno about this one, my dad had nothing against me n Hayon(the only gf he knew about, but i kno he had his"first time" after marriage cos thats the way they planned it with mom, well im different. Didnt have my first yet but wont wait till marriage, hehe,*chelsea* gaaay :D-naah its a choice, but still:P) I hate studying and responsibilities and I dno if he likes them or not but he studied a lot and still does(doing his MBA now) and is a responsible man. So-Im different than my father, but...
But there are things that we share that piss me off. Like turning small shits into huge deals. I tent to do it sometimes. Or overreacting, or getting annoyed by small things, or the disabiliy to always remain calm and chilled. Fuck. Have to change that. At least i kno who i have it from. Anyways gota go, its 1 and and i need to do my hw or im screwed.
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Posted by mikif91 on 2008-10-15 16:49:35 | Rating: | Views: 8
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