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1. Write down 19 things you want to say to people, but know you never will.
2. Do not reveal who you are talking about.
3. Say as much or as little as you want.
1. I knew that you couldn't let things go. A year ago, I walked away from that conversation and kept the things that were said in that room private. I thought that maybe one day, if I were to come back it would have been better for me to have kept my mouth shut. You did not look so good truth be told to anyone but I kept your comments silent. And now I hear that you were the one who had nasty things to say...after all this time, when I have kept your secrets, you throw me under the bus. Those who knew me, who know me, know how bogus and bullshit you are. My fear is that you are planting ideas about me in other peoples minds who never knew me at all. Honestly, I thought by now you would have been fired. It upsets me that you are still there and still in power, still being hailed as doing a good job when I know what a backstabbing, conniving, cock blocking bitch you really are. Your time will come and I will be happy to see it when it does.
2. I wish that you could tell me just what it is that you want from me. Tell me specifically so that I could either become it or let the idea of it all go. It would really cut down on the inner monologue that happens in my head if you could.
3. I've had a dream or two about you. Ones that might make you blush. Yet I tell you that we're friends, and we are, but sometimes I've wished that we could have seen where things might have gone had any of those dreams come to pass.
4. You are too pretty and cool to be with someone like him. You deserve to be with someone who can actually process their own feelings and share them with you. You deserve to be happy and appreciated. Even though I don't know you all that well, I think you are special.
5. I wish that I could tell you to be wary of him. I wish I could shake you and make you listen to reason but I've never met you and I probably never will. You would probably never believe me anyway and I'm sure that you think that you really love him but you are way too young to be strapped down to someone like him with all his baggage and all his lies. I know you might think of me as perhaps a jealous, bitter person, (maybe cause it's the picture that he might portray of me) but I'm not and if you knew me for real I would hope that you would learn that about me. You seem pretty cool and I hope for your sake that he can make you happy but I just don't think that things will work out for you two in the long run, I'm sorry.
6. And as for you...you're a liar, and you know who you are. You lied about dating her, you lied about how you felt about her, you lied about your feelings and your relationship. You are devious and dirty, and the best word that really does encompass it all is liar. You are worse than a car salesperson. Actually, you probably still are one. You were a waste of time and I thought for a while you were able to give me something that I was missing but I was just wrong. You were able to give me something, but it wasn't healthy, you made me believe it was something else. From time to time I still think about you. I can't help that, but trust me, it's not usually all good thoughts.
7. I love you! You are a strong, independent woman and I am so proud of where you have gotten to from the unhappiness I've seen from you in the past. I'm so glad that you have found someone to make you complete. I wish you nothing but happiness and many children if that is your guys' wish. I wish that I could see you more often, I miss you! And if he ever hurts you, I'll kick his ass for you, but I just don't see that happening, so he's safe.....for now.
8. You are not cut out for this job. I wish that you could recognize that you are not the best candidate for the position and all the bullshit that you try to blow up other people's asses doesn't change the fact that we all know you are not the true consumate leader you want to be considered to be. You are threatened by others who are trying to help you, you are immature, and have entrusted faith in people who are even less skilled than you are, which is suprisingly difficult to find.
9. If what I've heard about you is true, I don't think that we were, are, or are ever going to be in the future, friends. While I have done to a small degree what you have...it is in no way the same situation. You cannot really compare the two.
10. I only know some of the story, but I sure hope to goodness that parts that I heard were not true. He is an incredible, amazing person. If I didn't have a boyfriend I might have tried to get him drunk too to see how he truly, secrectly, feels about me. You are retarded to have let someone like him go. He's smart, funny, good job, honest, moral, ethical, and caring. I hope you had a really good reason and don't come to regret your choices in the future. I hope that he finds someone awesome and when you want to come back, he doesn't waffle and turns you down cold.
11. You're right, you are not in tip top physical shape. You need to lose some weight. I'm sorry.....I still love you.....
12. You are not the best dancer I know. Sometimes I wonder what they saw in you that they did not see in me. or if it was about dance at all. or what is really about something else?
13. I admire you so much. I wish I had your strength, your resolve, and your belief. Though I do wish I knew more often that I had your support.
14. My biggest fear is that one day you will look at me and be disappointed in what I have accomplished and what I have become. I have no greater fear in life than disappointing you.
15. If you knew the truth about things in my past, you would not have me on the pedastal that you do. Believe me when I say, there are things that I wish I could take back and never have had happened to me.
16. You are as cute as you think you are, but it doesn't mean as much as you think it does. It doesn't mean you can get away with as much as you think you can. wise up...with age comes ugliness. This applies to a couple of different people.....
17. You deserve someone special. I wish so much that you could break free from her elusive grip. I know that love will make you hold on in the bleakest of situations but time has shown her true colors and I believe you know that she is never going to leave him. I'm not saying that she is bad but she is bad for you. You deserve someone who will give as much of themselves as you can give to her. Please please, start down the path of finding someone new. I really do only want the best for you.
18. I still love you. Perhaps just in different ways than before.
19. There have been times when I play the "what if" game. You are one of those squares on that board game.
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Posted by michellemccarthy on 2008-02-04 02:59:11 | Rating: | Views: 256
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