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Another day where not much has been accomplished. I havent decided totally how honest i want to be in these blogs. And its not so much about other people seeing what i have worte, its more... externalizing my truest feelings. Its really hard to do for me. I dont want to really admit some things, even though i already know it i just dont want it out of me, i guess thats what i mean.
Well something thats been on my mind, is the fact that i am home all the time. Its fucking boring as hell. I am in a new city. ( i dont know if you can even call it that, its i am not even sure if its on a dam map its so small) the fact is its away from all the trouble where we used to live. Imean i could at least talk to people. i could get the drugs i wanted which was the reason why we moved in the first place, well not entirely... i was cheating onmy fiancee too.
But the worst part is i liked it. i had freedom. I had choices. Ha, now my only choice is to eat or not. UGHHHHH
I mean i just think if i am not working ( because my fiancee wont let me right now) i could at least party a little here and there. I am so tempted right now its not even funny. I big part me justifies it because before i limited my parting to the weekends becuase i worked. But now that i dont it would be nice because i dont have to get up in the morning.
Oh what did i to to myself.
I just kinda want some excitement.
oooooh i dont know. I am fucking BORED!!!!!!!!!!
Any body here live in ANGOLA?????????????? lol
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Posted by merica1006 on 2008-01-29 19:13:07 | Rating: | Views: 44
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