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| Feeling like S-H-I-T! |
Anyone else feel like that today?
I feel it in both the emotional and physical way.
So last night was fun, though I thought of Katie the whole night and kept going back to look at her photo, like a whipped puppy who was only whipped by a single look at a bone. I went to a close friends house, not knowing I knew her older sister from when I was younger, she use to go to my church and we were close. Well Shannon (The sister) dropped by and we started to talk again and chilling together, we watched The Hills Have Eyes 1+2, Jeepers Creepers 1+2, Sleepy Hollow, and The Unborn (Good movie, the medicine cabinet part Scary as all get out). All was good (Besides the looking at Katie's picture), until I had time to think--isn't that how it always goes?
We all crashed around 5 am, and I was in Meagan's bed, just laying awake thinking about the past, about Shannon, Sam and Annika. And how I missed them but didn't know how much until tonight when I was able to hang with Shannon again. And the missing them led me to missing Katie and how she hates me now. And so I was sad, still am now. So I finally get home (And I wanted to get home ASAP) to find I have a couple text messages from my Best Friends Mother. Telling me that now that I'm gay they want me to take all the photos I have of her two Daughters and I together down off my facebook and delete them.
Whatever.
Lesbians don't like every girl they see, in fact they don't look at every girl they see, idiots. So you don't want to be associated with me than just don't let them be friends with me, that's fine I don't care. I just don't anymore.
I really trusted these people and they just destroyed all of it. It's gone, and guess what guys? You won't ever get it back.
Hope you're happy. Happy, satisfied and proud.
Dumb asses.
Ever wanna go all Texas Chainsaw Massacre on people? Yeah I do. Right now.
I lost my first love, found out she hates me, told the people I loved that I'm gay and had over half of them leave me, got kicked out of my church and lost all the real family I ever had, my Mom's going to jail soon and I can't find a place to stay, my college stuff is behind and my guidance counselors are riding on me, I'm behind in school, I'm tired and I'm sick, and everybody hates me.
And FUCK YOU!.
I just wanna talk to Mrs Lynch right now and I can't cause I don't have her number and it's a weekend and I hate this shit!
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Posted by melissailene on 2009-11-01 15:05:35 | Rating: | Views: 22
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